Evah: noun
Meaning: The one I want to spend the rest of my life with, The one who stole my heart, My safe place, My sweetheart, The one I would tear the stars down for and steel the sun from the sky if she wished, My home

For anything you do in life
The smiles should always
Outweigh the tears and if
They don't, change the
Direction you're going in

Depression hits when you least expect it
You can't stop it
You can't put it off
Its like your personal hell
It grabs a hold with a grip of death

It doesn't plan on letting go
It makes you think
Makes you remember
All the things you tried to forget forever
Its like a disease

Its feeling like you're nothing
Useless
Worthless waste of air
A souless body empty shell
Walking around like a zombie

You can't sleep
You can't eat
You can't even muster a real smile
Your laugh is hollow
Your voice breaks

You lay in bed
Under your blanket
Music up too loud
Trying to silence your thoughts
It doesn't help

Nothing seems to help
No one seems to understand
I don't talk
I don't sleep
Don't know how to smile anymore
I don't remember happiness

And if you must go, just know.
I gave you my whole world..

You dont understand me!! You dont and can't see!!
Just how deep the darkness dwells
Just how much the pain it swells
How very little else is left How very scary it is for myself
I know how hard it is to simply live with me
I know it won't take long before l have to set you free You'll be one more scar
one more pain
You'll be one more thing
Yes everyday life seems a little darker
Yes everyday to live through it gets a little harder Sometimes I get lost in the swirl
Sometimes everything becomes a blur
This feeling of already being dead
This feeling of nothingness is filling me with dread.