Rylie Lucas: Poems

Rylie Lucas Dec 2017

When you think something, you can unthink it
When you hear something, you cannot unhear it

When you think something, it isn't true
When you hear something, it's easier to believe

When you think something, only you know
When you hear something, the whole world can judge you

because once you say something
it's in the world for forever

so just because you say "jk"
doesn't make it right

Because you never want to be
in a bullies sights

Thoughts

Rylie Lucas Sep 2017

Thoughts

Have you ever wondered
What life would be like
If you had never thought
Of what you’ve left behind
Our world is
Made up of thoughts
Of the past and the future
The present we don't think of
Because we think it'll make us distraught
But the present will do us good
We should focus on it more
Because without it
Life would be a bore
Well, really, without it
Life wouldn’t even exist
We wouldn't be alive
We wouldn’t exist
Your thoughts make you
So don’t just shove them away
Because without them
There wouldn’t even be a day
There wouldn’t be time for you
To even try
To think about life
And the things we’ve left behind
Your thoughts are yours
You don't have to share them
Just know that you always
Have to think about them

trainwreck

Rylie Lucas Jan 2018

trainwreck

problem after problem
not always a solution
to the pain the always
festers inside of me

it just sits there
wanting to be seen
but you mustn't let people see
how you really feel

conceal yourself
behind a mask
or better yet
a hologram

know that you don't need to
hide all your emotions
the world should be able to see you
through thick and thin

don't conceal
let your expressions show
it'll help
trust me

True Friendship

Rylie Lucas May 2019

True Friendship

True friendship is laughing when your friend falls before helping them up
True friendship is being allowed to criticize your friend for how they dress, but
        as soon as someone else does, you love their outfit
True friendship is knowing everything about each other (even the ***** details)
True friendship is missing them even before they're gone
True friendship is always being there, no matter what
True friendship is keeping each other in check
True friendship is understanding where you're boundaries are but pushing
        them just slightly with the goal of ******* them off
True friendship is knowing each other's emotions so well
True friendship is being able to guess what the other is going to say
True friendship is:
                            Magical
                            Amazing
                    and eXtraordinary

Love you Max, and I hope this made you smile.

#friendship #pain #loveyou #bestie #bestfriend #truefriendship

Trust

Rylie Lucas Sep 2017

Trust

Texting you one day
I noticed something was different
That you weren’t acting normal
And you wouldn't even listen
I tried and tried to get you
To open up and say
What was going on with you
On that very day
But you said you couldn’t tell me
And right then I was heartbroken
It was better that you didn’t tell me though
Because it would’ve left me hurtin’
Hurting more than not telling me
Is something really hard to do
But then again,
Telling hurts me too
Its one of those moments
You really have to think
And try to find the answer
Before your mind goes blank
Because I’m one of those people
That’s always gotta know
If you’re feeling okay
And if not then what is wrong
So don’t be afraid to open up to me
Even if you think it’s wrong
Because you’ll find it’s the right choice
And that doubting me was wrong
You can always trust me
As you should know
So tell me what’s bothering you
And I will help you though

Unknown

Rylie Lucas May 2020

Unknown

Before
In a time I can't remember
There was nothing but dark

Then you arrived
A sun to light up my world
Water to keep me alive

You were sweet like honey
With the right amount of sour
To keep things interesting

I made a mistake

I told you who I am

You may be supportive, sure
But you'd never change
For someone, you claimed to love

I was tossed aside
While you ventured out
For you next conquest

How could you
Someone as broken as me
Break me even more?

Don't come out of the closet to everyone :)

#depression #lgbt #genderqueer #trans #gay #pansexual #hurt #unloved #sad #love

Update!

Rylie Lucas Dec 2017

Update!

Hey Y'all, this ***** is here!

Sorry about the random updates, they(hopefully)will become more regular soon. I've had a lot on my hands, so please don't hate me!!

<3 Y'all!

Ashtyn

Waiting

Rylie Lucas Jan 2018

Waiting

You think that one day
Your heart might stop
Sometimes you can be scared
And sometimes you’re not

Sometimes you want to die
Sometimes you don’t
It depends on who you’re with
And what’s going on

Being depressed
Or bipolar isn’t easy
It isn’t fun either
Always ruining moments

You want to know why
You’re life’s upside down
But you can never find out
Because you can’t slow down

Know you’re not alone
There are others like you
Who want to be happy
But have no reason to

#bipolar #depression #middleschool

what have you done?

Rylie Lucas Nov 2019

what have you done?

i used to have motivation
i used to believe in magic
but then i met someone
that killed her
they say "hope is the thing with feathers"
and feathers are attached to an animal
i think mine was a bird
a phoenix with fiery wings
bold and unwilling to change for some idiots ideas
but my phoenix was drowned
and it left me vacant
my hope has been submerged in water of my own making
so now i no longer believe in magic
nor do i have motivation
instead, i sit in silence
feigning happiness and light
for my phoenix's wings no longer shine bright
and so, in turn, i don't feel any more
instead, i make sure that feeling goes to others

woo depression

#depression #hope #anxiety #phoenix #ptsd #sadness #lolwhatamievendoing

You're Imperfect Perfection

Rylie Lucas Apr 2017

You're Imperfect Perfection

When you breakup with someone
You were just not meant to be
And although you may try so hard
You cannot eternally see
And life will throw you into crazy situations
You have to outsmart them
And find a way out
Because this wasn’t the time for you then
No matter how hard you try
Life has no mercy
No matter how much you cry
Life has no third party
Wrong relationships are minor
Compared to so much that happens in our lives
So many things happen
That leave us to lay in bed and cry
So, leave them
Forget that person
Because they aren’t worth it
They are a terrible person
That doesn’t see your imperfect perfection

Your Love To Me

Rylie Lucas Apr 2017

Your Love To Me

You’re what i think of
When i wake up
And what goes through my mind
Through another breakup
You’ve been my companion
Through all of time
Even though
You’ve committed a crime
You’ve stolen my heart,
And that is worse than most
But, i refuse to go with you
Afraid that if i say yes
I’ll lose you too
That is a weight to
Heavy to bare
So i’ll just have to resort
To the good old “sit n’ stare”
Even though you’re my best friend
And i’ve know for a long time
I feel like we’re just singing a song
And spilling a rhyme
And, somehow i feel
That right now is not the right time
For us to pursue our destiny
To become lovers
For eternity
I think that we’ll just have to wait
For that right time
Before i’ll finally say yes
To your love to me

I just want to remind everyone that i make these myself, and that i am super sorry i haven't updated recently. I have been swamped with home work-7th grade is the worst-so please dont hate me!

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