I wrote this for you a long time ago on a coffee stained napkin, after you left me, full of love, lingering in a cafe.

"For you, in all your follies and faults and the way they make you so perfect for me.
For you, in the moments that linger in the vehemently insignificant corners and corridors of things, as if drifted of their own grandure.
For you, for the words that spill to the floor and the brilliant way you understand the deafening silence that follows.
For you, for your supernovas and clever shades, for your daylight smiles and nighttime skins.
For you, for your familiarity and the impossible truths that stand as martyrs to say that I have loved you before.
For you, despite the treachery and quiet sinister fun of the world.
For you, for making me so terribly scared of dying."
Yet here I am, in your wake, so full of so many thoughts and demons. Know that I have died, that I have loved and lost with equal measure.

well, well, god help
me, now have i
******* up! this
is a whole new
shade of awful!
i'm down again and
yet i still pretend
i'm! so! happy!!
and yellow is the sun
and jolly is my soul
and lord have mercy
on me and i'm! so!
alone! and i am cold
and i forgot the
mechanism of
breathing, oh i
need help! but i'm
so, happy, see? see!
can i still get into
heaven if i ****
myself? is there
heaven? is there
hell? IS THERE
ANYTHING
AT ALL LORD
HAVE MERCY
I'M! SO! STRONG!
**I DON'T WANT
TO BE ALONE

they say that
once
there was nothing but
chaos
and with time
every pile of chaotic asteroids
became a planet
it took great powers and many years
but
it happened

well, thanks to you
i am a pile of chaotic asteroids
*and to think i was a whole planet once

I find it nearly
                        impossible
   To write a poem that's clearly done
                    In simple,
Concise
Words
&
Phrases

I am the sun
I might burn you
But only with puns

I am the sun
I'll enlighten you
Yet I won't be done

I am the sun
I will brighten your path
Just for fun

I am the sun
I will keep the moon bright
Because you are the one

I am the sun
If you come too close to me
I will burn you, loved one

I'm alive
Here is my unadulterated heart
Bring on the pain and suffering
The scary bits of possible rejection

This is vulnerability

One word
You said "ditto."
That word shattered my heart
Because it took courage to say
(I) love you

I told her to map her problems
because i would travel the world to fix them
It was true
I couldn't stand the pain she was facing

I found her on an Island
the silence was deafening
she was alone an frightened,

I found her in the city
the bright lights blurred everything
She was clutching her chest
she was all alone an frightened,

I found her on the shores
the sea was screaming for help
she was  shaking
she was clutching her chest
she was all alone an frightened,

I bundled her up. I held her tight. I told her to close her eyes.
Everything will be alright

So, I took her home.

Excuse me sir, but
"Heartbreak" isn't metaphor
It's physical pain.