I always say never again
yet somehow, I always get pulled back into the realm of make believe
where hues are subtle yet vibrant
words are poignant and sharp
and dreams fade with glimmers of hope

yes, somehow, I always find myself here
wandering
hours lost in pursuit of that which faintly eludes my grasp
but imprints itself upon my heart
reminding me of the beauty of what could be

and so I continue to tumble into the realm of make believe
believing in its magic
even though I always say never again

so it feels
when I tumble down the rabbit hole of my mind -
an endless gray envelops the day
clouds blanket the sky,
suffocating the sun
as I drown in my thoughts

but soon –
vibrant rays of color and light burst forth,
warming my soul
melting my anxieties
reawakening my senses -
reminding me of the flavors of life

and once again -
I dabble in life’s small delights,
dancing in its wonder
with my heart ready to smile love

lost in the colors and sounds of delicious daydreams
where thoughts tangle and wrap themselves around the mind like thick vines
and promises bloom –
causing realities to shift,
suspending doubts
allowing the heart and mind to believe in the magic of possibilities

imprint the memory into your mind
for the moment begins to fade
as suddenly as it blossoms
and soon you’ll only be left
with delicate wisps in your imagination
leaving you to wonder if it ever happened at all

I see you lurking in the shadow
I see you trying to fade into the quiet
I see you trying to hide under timidity
I see you blending into the sea of the unknown

Who are you quiet one?

What makes you smile, allowing the light to shine from your eyes?
What makes you laugh, lifting the weight from your soul?
What do you carry in your hear that makes it so heavy?
What are the thoughts that keep you sleepless at night?

Who are you that stands in the shadows?

night
darkness
loneliness
wondering why
thoughts take hold of you
doubts penetrate your mind
unease seeps into your soul
the memories keep you hostage
unable to escape or forget
reminding you of everything that was

you caught me off guard
but deep down I knew
I felt a stirring
the pull of a connection yet shaped
we danced with our words
cautious then bolder
each step entwined with your confidence and my curiosity
before I knew it
I was lost in the music
colored by the lyrics of your thoughts