She doesn't sleep
Let alone eat
She's starved
She's living hour by hour with a cup of coffee in her hand
Tired and deprived of 'liesure time'
You won't hear from her
She's not dead
But it's practically the same

Why is she doing this?
You know the girl that people made fun of?
You know the girl who's dad broke her heart before any boy could?
You know that girl .
She wants to prove everyone wrong
She wants more
Never satisfied
She wants it all
She wants to be happy.
So she does it for her self

She studies all night long
She studies until 6 a.m before the exam ,
Grabs the biggest cup of coffee
Then goes to the one place she hates
All because she wants to be happy.


At the end of the day,
We hurt ourselves,
because we want to be happy .

This however is unfortunate
I lost the love of my life
But I haven't lost my life
Although I might of lost a piece of me that made me smile for no reason at all
And I also might've lost a little special Part of my soul..
But I haven't lost my life
Because the only person I cared about isn't in my life anymore
I have all the more time to take care of myself
This is not the end of the world
But the beginning of something beautiful strong intelligent and a kick *** journey
I want to make myself proud
I want to make you proud
I wish you the best and I know all you want is for me to be successful
Its my time to shine now baby.
This is my new chapter .

A new chapter only exists because of the last
The events and everything in the previous chapter will depict what will happen in the new one
The lessons you've learnt
The places you've been
The people you've met
So don't look at a new chapter and think the last is old and finished
It relives in the new
What you choose to take you bring with you
The last chapter will never really end
You're building on to that chapter
Its like a skyscraper.
You needed every floor before the other to make it to the top
For each and every floor is just as important as the next .
You build , not destroy .
Or you will get no where.

I thought he was perfect
I thought he couldve healed my broken heart
I thought he was my saviour
I guess not

Because he has another girl
And he fancy's her more than I
Even though he said he loves me
And I'm the one..

Then why won't he leave her?
Is it because she's more popular
Or maybe his friends font think I'm cute
Whatever it is, it has me puszzled
Because if I'm the only girl you've loved,
Then why aren't we together ?

But I guess its my fault.
Im the reason we can't see each other
My life doesn't make accommodation
For love..
And ironically love doesn't either

This situation is unavoidable
I wish we never met
If fallen in love with you
And now you want to leave me
You took away my purity
And now you want to leave me
I made you my all
And now you want to leave me
I love you.
You love me.
But because we hardly see each other
The pain never sieze
Because now you're avoiding me
Just when I decided that
I can trust you
You start to doubt me
And now you don't want me
I hate how life is cruel
But I guess some people aren't
Meant to fall in love forever

When you told me to delete your number
When you said it was my fault
When you left and you said you never would
When you lied to me..
When I put my all in you
When I loved you with my all heart, soul and my everything
When we took a shower together
When we ditched together
When we thought we would be together forever
When you broke up with me
When you broke my heart...

I thought it would never end
I thought our when's would lasts forever

When we giggled and hugged
When our lips touched
When we stared into each other's eyes and you said 'I'm gonna marry you'
When we thought we would get married
When I thought it would never end
When I check my phone and your name no longer shows up
When you said that I've probably been waiting for it anyway
When a small part of me thought this was for the best
When I believed you loved me
When my world came crashing down
When I realize nobody will never take your place
When I realize that you're not coming back..
And you want nothing to do with me
My heart breaks.
My heart burns.
When I think about our when's ...
I just wish they would've never ended

He's gone .
Yesterday was our 'goodbye'
Although he just said bye .
Then threatened me .

26/7/15

You tell me to do this,
Yet you never did it.
You can't tell me to do right,
When you only know what sin is.
Don't tell me to be quiet,
Because I don't fit in
'You know what I'm going through'
Yeah because you're Jesus
Standing in front of me in thin air
Come back when you're perfect .

And please shut up,
Because you're just wasting
God's limited air