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 Oct 2018 Olivia W
Rohan P
there is no reconciliation.
we're bleeding like paint
in the rain—
wilting flowers
colourless in
our greys.

sometimes your eyes
double, your words
curl my cheek, still lingering
to brush stray strands.

i'm open inside out;
when you turn away
i know the hinges are closing.
i remember your words:

"someday, with someone".
 Oct 2018 Olivia W
Lost Soul
YOU
 Oct 2018 Olivia W
Lost Soul
YOU
You said you would be there
where are you now
its like you don't even care
you said you know whats best
your tongue is a gun
i've taken so many shots
i wish i would've had a bulletproof vest
you say u know the real me
but i've lost myself
can't remember  who i should be
you said you love me
you hold  too tight
i wanna run away from you and be free
 Oct 2018 Olivia W
Lost Soul
Eulogy
 Oct 2018 Olivia W
Lost Soul
Hi Everyone, I'm dead
Don't cry now
Where were you
When I lived in bed
No visits, texts, or calls
You were too busy
While I was alone in my room
Trying to remember to breathe while I bawl
Don't worry I'm not blaming you
Depression hit hard
I'm a coward
It was my fault too
I should  have done what was best
Stop pushing people away
Stop conforming to others wishes
Told my maybe boyfriend... yes
But its not about why or how
Stop crying,we had our chance
we blew it
I'm dead now
 Oct 2018 Olivia W
Lost Soul
If you came here for happy poems
Then u came to the wrong place
I cant pretend I'm happy
Smile and lie to your face
If you wanted to be lifted up
Move along i cant help you
I'm corrupted
If you came here for some self help
I don't have enough help to even help myself
If you came for a love story
You missed the mark
I cant find love
I guess I'm too dark
If you were seeking hope
That word is a unwelcome as a cuss word
I have to wash my mouth with soap
If you come with loneliness or pain in your heart
Dear friend read my poems and I'll read yours ,thats a start
If you come broken and bruised
Message me so i can share the burden
We can swap stories, feel less abused
If you message me
I'll cry with you , I'll comfort you
But don't think I will be inspirational or filled with hope
I will bring my true self
Together we will figure out how to cope
 Oct 2018 Olivia W
Mims
There's things that I don't say
In between kisses
And bowls of ramen noodles
On weeknights

There's a quiet sadness settled behind the couch and on the inside of my ribcage during our twilight marathons
On the weekends

Things left
To hopefully be forgotten under the bleachers at your soccer games
I go to whenever I can

It hangs with your hoodies in my closet
In the pit of my stomach
It's small but I can't stop it
And it takes me out for days at a time

I see you every day
But sometimes I am distant
In a different way

It's been done to me
And I'm sorry I'm doing it to you
I'm trying to phase the disappointment that has nothing to do with you
Out of my life like cycles of the moon...

The stars are ours
And that is true
I've never felt like I do when I'm with you
But I tried to tell you
I don't think
You completely understood
You have never felt
Such a sadness before.
.
.
.
.


"What's wrong?"
"Is something wrong?"
"You would tell me if something was bothering you,

Right?"


...
Listen to, in my mind by, dynoro while reading this. for the full effect
 Oct 2018 Olivia W
Mims
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 Oct 2018 Olivia W
Mims
What draws me to you?!
What?
There's nothing
Nothing I can name
And yet your name still makes my stomach sink everytime I hear it
There's nothing
Nothing I can tell myself to stop the burning

I used to think that if I stayed up every night
You'd come back to me
I wonder now
How stupid you have to be
To want someone who rejects you

Over
And over
Again

My hurt
Holds
No
Reasoning



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