I want to hold you
I want to be with you

Yet I never will
Yet I never can

Because you don't love me any more
Because you don't see me as I do you

It pains me to know that you are there
And I am here.
It pains me to know that I can't have you
As I had you

I'd rather die than live with this pain
I'd rather die than knowing that you don't love me

So god please **** me
For I am useless and broken
Hurt and a lone

God please make it stop
You have never been there for me
And I have searched for you

God please make it stop
If you are there
Without a voice, I am screaming of pain
So god please make it stop

I give you every single part of me
Every. Single. Part.
And god it hurts, so badly
to be away from you
and know you could be searching for more.
I want to be all you need.
And still,
you're talking to her
and her
and her.
Why can't I be enough for you?
Sometimes I want to rip out my heart and throw it away.
It hurts so badly and I feel so drained.
I know she's,
prettier
skinnier
funnier
smarter
better
in every way.
But why can't it be me?
I just want you to love me.
I love you so much.
Please,
Love me.

It's called having a "crush" for a reason:
Because it crushes your soul
until your ripped-up heart
and glass-sharp tears
completely dissolve you
into nothingness.