i wrote you
a letter every day
letters to tell you
just how i feel

written in neat, curved
writing i told you
just how sweet
i thought you were
how you made my heart
glow

letters in which i wrote
with various colors of ink
pouring out my whole being
to you

i wrote you
a letter every day.

i wrote you letters in which
i told you how you made me
bloom.

eventually
i found myself
pressing harder on
the paper
than i had before.

creating tears in them
similar in shape
and size
as the ones
inside of me.

i began to send
letters
with creases
and bumps
and stains
splattered with tears

pouring
from my eyes

as i wrote
the anger
bubbling within me.

my last letter
addressed to you
contained
no words

but was blank.
because
i had none that

could reach
as far

and deep

into the cracks
of my
heart

to describe
just
what you

had left
of me.

Some people love listening to lies even though they know the truth.

I sit in my corner,
****** and lonely.

The words on my arm,
Are blurry and muddy.

The tears drip down,
and fused with blood.

The scars look horrid,
But they'll soon fade,

And I'll be back in my corner,
The scars remade.

Should've kissed you
Should've fought for us  
Could've crawled into your arms
Could've taken advantage of the opportunities i had
Would've done so much more if I knew the hell I've put myself in
Would've said yes if you were to ask me again
But you never will,
Besides I'm trying to pretend I moved on
Just be your friend
We used to say "No regrets "
It was our version okay/okay
I'm so sorry you wasted your time on me
There so many things I regret
I'm sorry it turned out this way  
I understand if your upset....
I am too