You could pinch my arm
and I wouldn't wince.

All feelings repelled
like water to oil.

If you lit me on fire
I'd share a smoky
sigh before suffocating
without ever saying a word.

she fell in love
fell into a stream of promises
lost hope in the way people loved
found herself in a puddle of tears
built by those who promised nothing but love
she learned how to swim
then they invented waves
she taught herself how to ride
they still found ways to hurt her
but she must forgive
she must always forgive, for hurt people hurt people
what she didn't know was, she was hurt by only hurt people, who didn't know how to heal
so she forgave, until she couldn't do it anymore
until she couldn't do anything anymore

You are a novel
gathering dust on my shelf
but not because I don’t want to read
but because I’m afraid
to turn the page,
afraid of how you’ll end

Re-ject-ion
I can’t even type it whole
I’ve never said it out loud
I’ve whispered it
Like some people whisper the
word ***
But I’ll never be bold enough
to just say it
It’s the most heart wrenching
word ever created
It consumes my every thought
Yet I refuse to acknowledge it
exists
I prefer the words desired, accepted, loved.

I do not want this word Re-ject-ion

I am struggling
I have a lust for love
I feel lost without it

Romantic fuel
I'm dead without it

Breathe life back into my soul
I lack a fever
I lack lust
Or love

Vulnerability is trust
Trust is vulnerability
Carefully tread these dark waters;
do not lose yourself.