I S A A C

I S A A C Aug 2020

Ran from me, the iridescent spark in me vanishing
From the cutting comments to the opposed shame, it was damaging
Made me second guess, thinking I was second best
Pretended I wasn't blessed, monumentally stressed
But when I got depressed they pressed me more
Only loves the hues of my deepest bruise
Pointed and poked until the bear came to
Bite the finger off the master, I am not longer a slave
To the concept of your society, nor to the silent law engraved
Within the mind of the empty
A fate I could never envy
If you don't want me to succeed; forget me

#strength

I S A A C Aug 2020

Witch Hazel

it's the tenderness that I crave
Someone who is sturdy and won't cave
Under the pressure of cold eyes
Under the pressure of bold lies
Will you believe me as they put me at the stake tonight
Half-past noon I was rummaging through the room
Pushed back the curtain to see the view
When I saw pitchforks and heard the venom they spew
So here I am draped in the full moon, ropes so tight
I am selfless I know because nothing can stay gold
But if this is my time to go at least I know my glow will be emblazoned in their minds
My conscience will be divided into all of their little minds then continue to haunt them and their lineage
Not only am I all-powerful but I am also a stubborn *****

Do not fear power

#empowerment

I S A A C Aug 2020

King of Cups

Toes digging into the water, my mind is so clear
Floating on the boat forgetting my fears
Kissing the sun forgetting you my dear
Hair perfumed with salt, beach waves
Skin laced with lotion, sunbeams
Smile painted on, the house of cards cave
Makes me soar like dragonflies and rationalize my problems let them be disguised
Within the shivering black that the sun cannot penetrate
Within the deepest depths that harbor sea monsters' eyes
A mouth of chiseled layered teeth and skin so scaly and slick
No ounce of fear I have inside
Relaxing within its mouth because my rise was prophesized

WATER

I S A A C Aug 2020

Life On Earth

I wipe the tears away at night
I handle the storms inside
I trust in my own light
I surrender to the divine
I am more than my emotions and more than my moments
I am a sum of all the lives I've lived and every heart I've kissed
I've lost and won but they bleed into one
The experience and memories are all that follow me not my accolades and trophies
I take each day to target my pain and eradicate it away
Every day is a new beginning to start a new way
Like the fool, I am in constant change
My nomadic mind cannot be tied
To one culture or one belief
Because that would be preventing me
From being as open as the thousand petal lotus
I am devoted to nothing except my destiny
The road very sporadic ahead and can only see as much as I am meant to be
But according to God's plan, I am winning
I throw myself off of mountains to connect to the sea
I throw myself off track when I don't believe in me
I know I am not alone in this world and will never be
Not with my ancestors and angels protecting me
I have experienced pain and sorrow but at their discretion
I have also experienced an overwhelming amount of blessings
So I have taken them as they come including the lessons
Because I was put on this earth for a reason and I have to respect it

#life #growth #connected #blessed

I S A A C Jul 2020

Daisy Doo

I have to let go
Like vines that grow, my love is gripping your throat
But I shouldn't have to force things we both know
I jump out of the car, to run so far
Away, too much pain
I see daisies fill the way
Climbing the mountain with one tucked behind my left ear
Reaching the summit I can feel the fear
I place both my feet firmly on the peak
Everything I speak materializes
I am more than what you give to me
I start realizing
That these daisies are all I need
If you want me then you must show me
Because I am smiling embracing the green
Fear no longer holds me

#daisy #independence #love #power

I S A A C Jul 2020

Purrs of Nyla

I craved intimacy, thought your hand on me would free me
I thought that if you embraced my waist, all my tears would fade
I thought pain and shame would be buried in my adoration of you
But little did I know love is a scary thing and I subconsciously ran before it caved in too
So this cycle I perpetuate leaves me in a constant state of disarray
I can't decide which fear controls me inside but I do recognize I need to change the ties
Like a spider creeping on my back, my cat appears with love
Rubbing her head against everything craving my attention indefinitely
The eyes closed, so close, the love I have been craving
So I give the love I been craving to my baby and she returns it to me
Suddenly the act of loving unconditionally is no longer foreign to me

#cat #nyla #love #scared #change #transformation #butterfly

I S A A C Jul 2020

Busy Boy

Is it that difficult, that much of a task
to think of me and text back?
Is your lifestyle so complex, that you cannot even spare a sec
Because it seems to be me giving. giving
And then I give some more
But you treat my existence as a chore

Do you wait for me to text?
Do you lay up in your bed, rereading the messages sent?
How much space do I consume in your head?

For me, it is easy to see the juxtaposition
I never thought you would put me in this position
To have to beg and plea for your attention on me

So I just move on like I usually do because everything good has to fall apart
So I embrace the impermanence of it all

#busy #anxiety #overwhelmed #feelings #love #or #lack #of