Tracing constellations,
Across a dark abyss
A simple line, 'cross space and time
Making sense of rifts

A twinkle in our pupils:
Ancient light well traveled
But while we gaze through earthly haze
The universe unravels

we play house.
he makes us coffee
and
i wear his shirts.

we play house.
he drinks his feelings
and
i stare at the ceiling while he sleeps.

we play house*.

I feel out of place
in the summertime-
oversized and awkward,
forcing smiles that
crack and peel
and pretending
that I am bold
that I am unaffected
that I am ready
as I shove black thoughts
back down into
silent fissures.

Now fall is creeping in
with great grey plumes
of september clouds
and all of those slippery
dark thoughts bubble up
and out to settle
in every corner.

And I vacillate
from mind-numbing
sorrow and overwhelming
exhaustion to
glittering highs
from the beauty of it all-
the contrast is acutely
melancholic and
sweet at once.

I pour out feelings
that stick to my canvas
and make love
in shallow pools
of moonlight
and smile at something
that feels real
and I am bold
I am unaffected
I am ready.

Slowly fading away

You use to be my hideaway

Loneliness has become my best friend
 
As I disengage myself from myself

Only you can help me escape my misery
 
I want you

You hurt me yet I still want you

Thats the truth ...

But what if I told you I like the pain

Would you come back ?

Would you be my redeemer ?

Because right now i need you

I managed to cope with our different views

Silently you tore my broken heart

But somehow I still crave you

I adjusted myself to the pain

I became numb to all my senses

Senselessly I fell in love with you

It just hurts me even more because I'm so into you

So innocently into you

So emotionally into you

But loving you won't make you love me back...