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m a k a y l a Mar 2019
I'm feeling a little burn't out lately
Is it a lack of motivation?
I'm caught in a spot where everything is changing
I can't find my place
It's uncomfortable, my skin feels hot
I'm feeling a little burn't out lately

I'm feeling a little heavy lately
When you look at old photos and see the difference
You could pass it off as height , but know its the weight
Thinking yourself into a dark hole
I haven't been there in awhile, I guess its time
I'm feeling a little heavy lately

I'm feeling a little fake lately
A forced smile can appear enough to seem real right?
Maybe I'm not doing it right, its not working
I can't see past today, is that carpe diem?
Life's getting hazy, I'm getting more and more numb
I'm feeling a little fake lately

I've been going through the motions lately
I've figured it out, that dry dry feeling
Its a nasty feeling, to feel dry
You feel worn and used
Going through the motions, I've figured it out
I want to feel a lot more now
m a k a y l a Mar 2019
You can't tell me it was right
I saw their faces, I saw your face
Pain, sadness, all the bad things, I saw it
I felt their hope fade, the silence in their ears
You can't tell me it was right

You didn't hear the cracking sounds their hearts made
You did't feel the blood pumping throughout their brains
You put a hand on them, you inflicted that pain
But you don't know do you?
It was not right
m a k a y l a Mar 2019
I like to watch you laugh
I play it over again in my head in slow motion
The crease in your eyes, the light behind them
I can feel your soul relax, you give it all to God
The backpack full of bricks and regret, you gave it all to God
Your smile takes up half your face, it really is a beautiful sight
The hair in your face, your teething making an appearance, almost primal
I like to watch you laugh
m a k a y l a Mar 2019
Joy
I prefer Joy,
Its not always loud or exciting, it can be quiet
That means I can be joyful
No strings attached, no circumstances
Just joy

I prefer Joy,
It doesn't need to be perfect or beautiful
It just wants you
He just wants you
Just joyful

I prefer Joy,
Its a place my spirit can live, it can rest
It can rest in Him, in his glory, his joy
We are His joy, He is ours
In Him, Joy is eternal
m a k a y l a Mar 2019
I can feel the way you hurt
I can see it too.
I feel the clench of your heart
Its right on cue
It happens in the dark
I can feel you

I can feel the way your skin burns
Mine does the same
Under the sun, God's laugh
A feeling that can't be tamed
I can feel you

I can feel the way your mouth stretches when you smile
My eyes crinkle at the sides
No traces of senile
The tears are gone, my breath longer divides.
I can feel you
Joy in the midst of devastating loss, crushing disappointment,
unbearable pain or scourging heartache is about the discovery of
treasure so precious and rare that it never could have been found
had we not been forced to walk a path of affliction in the desert.

It's in the isolation and brutality of the wild that we come to know Him
in ways that transcend the span of human imagining or desiring,
and all the songs and all the poems and all the masterpieces
taken together cannot capture an estimable description
of the pleasures that might be unearthed there.
"O God, You are my God, earnestly I seek You; my soul thirsts for You, my body longs for You, in a dry and weary land where there is no water. I have seen You in the sanctuary and beheld Your power and Your glory. Because Your love is better than life, my lips will glorify You. I will praise You as long as I live, and in Your name I will lift up my hands. My soul will be satisfied as with the richest of foods; with singing lips my mouth will praise You. On my bed I remember You; I think of You through the watches of the night. Because You are my help, I sing in the shadow of Your wings. My soul clings to You; Your right hand upholds me."  Psalm 63:1-8

"It was good for me to be afflicted so that I might learn Your decrees.  The law from Your mouth is more precious to me than thousands of pieces of silver and gold."  
Psalm 119:71-72
go on your way
My beloved child
turn aside from
the swerving path
untangle your gaze
to center on Me
stand in courage
hugging wisdom
guard all thoughts
leaning upon My love
release what's behind
and walk on in joy
Proverbs 4

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