I’m gay I’m gay I’m gay I’m gay I'm gay
it kind of
spills off my tongue
when I don’t want it to
an
impulse
a
burning choke in my throat
falling out of me when I wish it would stay inside
when strangers are around
when
they really don’t need to know

it’s painted on my face
it’s written on the backs of my hands
my collarbone is burning white hot with a tell
and my eyes watering every secret of it

can they tell?
can everyone see right through me?
I’m
too scared to ask
somehow
also too scared to keep it inside

It wants out more than anything
but
she wants to be safe more than anything

It is all now done in vain,
To pretend in a state of pain.
To look through tears like rain,
It still remains just a game.
We struggle to remain sane,
Even as the horrors are plain.
Who shall we seek to blame?
As we wallow in this shame.
Sweet nectar now bitter strain,
As the sacrifices are in vain.
Our honor now deeply stained,
Our wounds now so inflamed.
To the heavens our necks craned,
We pray the hardships to be waned.
© Perveiz Ali

With the day almost done
The light closing in all around me
Sunlight that no longer shines
The dusk I cant outrun
In the crowd of shades
My head hung low and forlorn
Lacking hope,trust and glow
Surrounded by people and yet alone

With the night almost begun
The stars trying to lighten up
Knowing how dark it's getting down here
Peering deep into the darkness 
My eyes beginning to see,but
So far what I have seen and known
Is only and only that I am
Surrounded by people and yet alone

he was crushed brittle
with counterfeit kiss;
and buried underneath dead promises.
worms of crawling pain
dug holes any deeper
within the much more broken machine.

blizzard came and went not;
winds blew colder
numbing scars off;
he'd been the ocean
kissed by glaciers and icebergs
any sunlight couldn't melt
to water once more.

he'd awaken breathing the ghost he'd been before.

Take me away from this place
To a beach somewhere far from here
Take me away from this place
To a place with my favorite beer
It's a place I can go
To escape and be free
It's a place I can go
To relax and just be me
This place is my mind
It's my one true solace
This place is my mind
Sans hate and malice

I think I'll run away soon.

Wow, I **** at this
How do I write a haiku?
Oh... Well look at that