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Silver Lining Dec 2015
Who would have thought that breath would ever be something that you have to focus on to make happen

Yet here I am, holding my breath because I forgot to think to exhale

I can not get enough air in and it feel like a block of ice is on my chest holding me down, freezing me out. I feel like I'm drowning but there's no water in sight.
Silver Lining Dec 2015
You are powerful.

You are created by the same matter that makes up the stars that shine so bright, you can see them from billions of miles away.

Your breath is carried away by the same wind that took a seed and blew it somewhere new, for it to grow into a strong oak tree.

You are powerful.

You are created by the same matter that makes up the great redwoods who have stood for hundreds of years, through storm after storm.

Your breath is carried away by the same winds that push windmills to supply cities with electricity.

You are powerful.

You are created to radiate what you're made of, not reflect your surroundings.

Your worth is endless, and your power vast.
Do not let the world drain that out of you.
Everyone is powerful, don't be afraid to show your strength.
Silver Lining Dec 2015
I drove towards your house the other day
I nearly turned into your street.. I was on auto pilot.

Just that day you had sent me a message and asked if I wanted to meet for coffee.
I think it's funny that you're the one in a relationship and yet I'm the one who said no.
You have no idea what it took for me to decline your offer.
But I had to protect you.. I wasn't going to let you ruin your relationship for a 16oz beverage that would burn our throats and start a ripple effect of pain.
Silver Lining Sep 2015
Being physically close to someone does not bother me- I like being touched. I like hugging and the feeling of someone running their fingers over my back and arms.
But once that physical touch gets a little too close to emotion I push it away. Once someone starts to feel like they have feeling for me, or that I for them, I immediately think of ways to push them away in such a slight way that they do not realize what is happening.
Because the truth is.. The fingerprints left on my skin, the touch I can not scrub away in the shower, will be gone. I will have a new set of skin in a matter of weeks. Skin that hasn't been touch, hasn't been tainted with someone's prints.
But the words that they said to me will forever be printed on my heart. Each letter stamped into my mind where it'll wait to hurt me again, filed away under "Do not go back" until it gets dark and I wander through the shelves trying to find someone, something to occupy myself with. Something to remind myself that I was not always this alone..
Silver Lining Sep 2015
You said you didn't want to lose me
That you wouldn't know what to do

But you certainly knew how to say
"I don't love you anymore" and you knew how to walk away.
Silver Lining Aug 2015
I get so confused when I think
because I'm so hungry but I
about recovery. Sometimes I want
don't want to eat, or because
it so badly, and other times
I ate and I wasn't suppose to an once
I do not fight the urges at
I get inside I know I have to
all. I use to limit myself to
get rid of it all. Have to. Some
certain times and specific places.
nights it's me kneeling on the
Obviously we went past that line
bathroom floor, rocking back and forth
ages ago. Sorry. I want to be
holding my head in my hands
normal so badly. I don't like
because I'm trying to silence the
having anxiety that makes me
voice screaming insults and telling
Shake after I eat. I don't like
me to do what I hate doing.
not feeling safe in my house
Maybe I don't hate it as much
to the point that I just sit
as I'd like to say. I've lost weight
in my car for hours before
and I love that more than I hate
finally entering. It's always
the burn of acid and empty ache.
different too. Sometimes it's
Silver Lining Aug 2015
you said you were always going to be there
           but where are you now?
it's dark, and cold
     I am utterly alone drowning in this
         feeling of being
empty
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