I’ve been saying yes to many things
But never to myself.
I’ve been cheering on other people’s dream
But never to myself
Paying attention on their life
But what about my own life!
26 years has passed by
And my life is full of goodbyes
I’ve been here in the deep end of the tunnel
Where dark meets the darkest
And no light can shine brightest.

To the girl beside the mirror,
How long has it been since you saw your own reflection?
Trying so hard to hide beside it,
not knowing what would you see or who would it be.
Will there be a shadow from the past? or a clear view of future?

To the girl who silently sings her emotions,
How long has it been since somebody listens to you?
People say they hear you but still don't know what to do.
Everyday you explain, but still don't know who or what to blame
Will there be someone to rescue you from this cycle of games?

and lastly, To girl who wrote this letter,
How long has it been since you started this new world?
A world that is covered with sincere words and sensitive feelings.
A world where your life has a whole new meaning.
Will there be a time that you'll stop dreaming?

There are times when I don't feel sad but I feel bad
bad enough that I question the things I have done.
As my day go on, I wish this thing could be gone.
I laugh, smile and have fun for a little while
but then I still go back to that same feeling.
Feelings that I don't know how to express, neither what to call it,
Or is it stress?
It's like somebody punch me on my chest
but the hand got stuck there and took a rest.
I wanna share this feeling but I'm afraid that no one is willing.
Same time last year when I had the same feeling
I though I was done. I moved on and worked ******* it.
But I guess it will always come back once you had it.
how sad I don't even know what to call "it".

Day after day
Eyes got tired from waking up
Pulling myself back to bed
Resting is what I need best
Eyes shut closed
Slowly trying to wipe my tears and
Slowly trying to forget all my fears
I cannot think of another way out
Only dreaming is what I don't doubt
Now you know what my life is about.

As time pass by
My memories of you die
I had hopes that we'll never say goodbye
but there's no more room for one more lie

I'm done chasing people.
It's way harder that chasing my dreams.
If you want to stay astray
Go on, I'll be out of your way.

Where did I do wrong?
It seems like anywhere I go
My failure grows.
Whatever I do,
All I can hear are boos.
I used to believe in my dreams
but my light is starting to dim.
Darkness is filling my stomach
and Coldness is felt on my back.
Cliche as it sounds
but if only I can turn back time,
know where it went down.
My life would be the other way around.

Standing in the middle of the terminal
Confused on where to go
I have an empty bag but my heart is full of emotions.
I've been everywhere,
Searching here and there
Looking for something that I don't even know
It's not when, but where will I stop and grow?
I hope one day I end this confusion
And find a place I can call my Home.