After you left it lasts for a week
those pleaded and weep
I've done everything to keep
but still you left and now I am weak.


No text, no call
no you after all
I think you've forgotten me I don't understand
I've got this fear now that I cannot stand

I am no longer open for companions,
I don't even take everyone's opinions
I don't talk I thought doubtly
I think they'll just reject me.

I don't even talk to who's not committed
Cause I have this fear now of being rejected
I am now sealed with this fear
Be forgotten by a person eventhough I love for real.

What is it that we show
As our hearts beats we don't know
That strange feeling we just wan't, No
Whenever we felt it with someone we can't, let go.


They say it's Love you are in love
At cause of nothing you just felt you have
That kind of feeling compared a lot
To what people felt, stated as a plot.


All blandishing words comes out within
My mouth from soul yes it's in
The thought of something I just don't know
This feeling's strange for someone I can't let go.

I'm stuck with writing poems just to forget what we really were about
Words are bringing me so deeply insane
And I don't think I could look myself again.

So I write this poem to you for the last time
I don't think any words to rhyme
Cause my heart sinks into
Thinking the day spend without you.

I was lively
And full of dreams
I chased the dark skies
And waited for him...
I was mere eighteen
When love happened to me
He was only twenty
And irresistible to me...
We talked long hours
No matter; Day or night
We made promises
Under those dim lights...
He touched me
With his voice
And My body shivered
Every time he said goodbye...
We walked for miles
And shared our lives
He said he was broken
And needed me by his side...
He gave all the love
I ever asked for
In return
He used to smile and walk off...
Weeks and months passed
Until he asked me
He wanted me to take another step
And surrender myself to him...
I was scared
And was definitely not ready
I kept silent
While he kept reminding me of my duties...
His voice changed
And so his touch
As if he was waiting all this long
To unbutton my shirt...
I was confused
While he made a distance
As if I was the culprit here
And needed the punishment...
I finally surrendered
And he smiled
He held me in his arms
While I felt broken and cheated...
But i still had hope
In my diminishing love
I decided to end my virginity
To save my precious love...
He did all he wanted
Day and night
But it was his touch
That doesn't sound right...
Now it's the body
That all he ever wanted
My soul was lost
But he never bothered to ask why?
I wept in darkness
And lonely night
He only called and messaged
When he wanted to undress me by his side...
I was cheated and
My love was lost
He used me
Like a *** toy...
I finally spoken
And broken up with him
He smiled and went away
As if I never meant anything to him...
This is the truth
Which I wanted to share
Don't lose your virginity and soul
To someone who says I love you and want to see you naked....
I was lively
And full of dreams
I chased the dark skies
And waited for him...
I was mere eighteen
When love happened to me
He was only twenty
And irresistible to me...

I remembered how I died inside
I couldn't make a single sound
Like a dying fish crave for life been sunfired
In my own tears my soul drowned

It just killed me to know I was no longer for you
Being not in touch and how like we used to
How my voice no more gave you the jitters
When it all once rained pieces of my heart glitters

My heart now concealed by my tears to free
Our thoughts shared I wanted to break free
And so as my life shadowed with sky so grey
I am no longer me what I was yesterday.

He had wanted to say, "don't go".
She had wanted to hear, "don't go".

He loves death.
She loves life.
He lives for her.
She dies for him.
He wants eternity.
She wants infinity.
He cares good of their bond.
She promise him more of beyond.