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ky Jun 2016
so i sit on the floor
wearing your old clothes
breathing in your smell

trying          
                  to
move  
                     on

but i can't understand
there's something about you
that won't let me forget you
i try so hard
but every time i go back
to when you said what you said
i still cry from the pain
and the heartache
and i realize, i loved you
i still do
ky Jan 2017
the constellations of stars
as we stare silently into the dark abyss of the sky
remind me of how my heart used to align with *yours
ky Mar 2016
Music
the one thing everyone in this world has in common
whether they like a genre or the other
it's still music.
it moves through you
can make you happy and calm or upbeat.
it makes you feel like you're not alone.
ky Feb 2016
Tugging on my skin
leaving permanent scars
blood sheds out
but i let it dry up

busy chugging pills
trying to look skinny
even throw up a little
so i can like me

going through magazines
and wondering about
how they're so beautiful
and i'm not

i think god hates me
because my life is a mess
leaving food behind
for my beach body
By the way, this poem is not about anyone I know. It's for people who want to change how they look and are going through depression. I just wanted to leave a note that everyone is perfect in their own way. I bet that at least one person likes all those little things that make you who you are. Don't self harm and don't hate your body or treat it badly. If you don't like yourself or how you look in the mirror, well then all I can say is a mirror is a piece of glass and you are much more than that. People tend to hide their feelings with fake smiles and forced laughs. You'll find someone that will make your days brighter and that's something to look up to. Remember that "suicide doesn't end the chances of life getting worse, suicide eliminates the possibility of it ever getting better". Hope you have or had a great day and don't give up.
ky Feb 2016
here you are again
knocking at my door
trying to apologize and come in the way you did before

friends don't leave
and i'm so sick of this
it always happens with you and i don't think i can carry on

you try to change my mind
and get back in my life
but all the begging's not doing any good better hurry up i'll be gone soon
ky Jun 2016
i came upon this place
over-crowded with people
overwhelmed with sadness
and they screamed
      " run, run
           as fast as you can
              as far from here
                    
                      escape

                   while you have the chance"
and i took my legs
as fast as they would go
and carried myself so far away
that the place i came upon
looked like a tiny dot
and gave a sigh of relief
for i had escaped in time
ky Jun 2016
They can't help you
enveloped in the darkness
your screams don't reach their ears
your feet are frozen to the ground
unable to move or breathe
heart beats so loud
you want to get away
but the fear of what could happen
of what will happen
makes you stay put
ky Jul 2016
Our souls rise
as our corpses lie still
silently roaming the earth
reuniting with our friends
sticking together
even after death itself
let them keep us in their minds
and close to their hearts
finally we rest in peace
ky Jun 2016
a shadow
whispered to me
my only companion
left as quickly
as it came
and i just stood there
in the middle of the night
looking towards where it went
wondering if i'll ever see it again
ky Oct 2016
Walking to the front
My palms sweating
Tingles of nervousness flowing through my body
I open my mouth, my voice shaking
I see my friends smiling at me
But I can’t rid this feeling
Speaking in front of fifteen people
And still i’m nervous
ky Aug 2016
we are born
we grow up
we fall in love
we fall out of love
we break down
we grow old
we've enjoyed the journey
but it's time for us to go
ky Dec 2016
saying this makes my heart ache
my stomach churn
and my eyes water
but a place like this
is not one i would've liked to exist in
where everyone excludes one
because of a language barrier
and is punished for speaking their own language
because the others felt uncomfortable
it disgusts me
that people think it's acceptable
and it saddens me
that this is a world we live in
ky Feb 2016
You told me you needed someone
a shoulder to cry on i guess
but after all your tears dried up
you ignored me and i was a mess

you said your goodbyes through text
not even bothering to notice
this dark cloud over my head
whenever i see you in the hallways

all you did was use me
and made me believe we had something
but our "something" turned to dust
and here you are pretending like nothing's happened

i don't know why i bother
trying to love when they don't know how
it's like i'm setting up a trap for myself
but i'm too caught up in your eyes to realize
ky Feb 2016
Oh life
what have you got for me this time
i've been through highs and lows
but i haven't got much strength left

Oh life
what have you got for me this time
my bones are aching
and my heart keeps breaking

Oh life
what have you got for me
i'm in a hospital
and i'm running out of breath
(i'm running out of time)
ky Apr 2016
For all the times we’ve had together
it was all for nothing
one mistake was all it took
and now we’re on different pages

trying to rip out all the problems
trying to get you to understand
it’s not just me to blame
and it’s not for you to judge

it doesn’t take much to get mad
and the problem may be small
but you don’t know how it feels
until you’re in my shoes

I want you to know
that i’m not mad
but you’ll never see
because you don’t talk to me
anymore

don’t want this friendship to end
but I don’t understand why you’re mad
we’re on different pages
and we can’t go back

different minds brought us apart
and now i’m left here to try and fix this
but this can’t be a one sided job
we’re both to blame for what we haven’t said
ky Mar 2016
what if you never really liked me
what if we weren't actually friends
what if this whole friendship was a lie
what if our memories meant nothing to you
what if we never talked again
what if we're not friends anymore
what if...
ky Feb 2017
I love your eyes the most,
because they hold all the emotions you cannot speak of
they hold such beauty that when I close my eyes
it's yours I see
ky Feb 2016
You think my scars are to get attention
I think my scars are there to remind me not to go there
they remind me of what I’ve been through and that I’ve survived

You think my outer appearance defines me
I think my outer appearance is nothing compared to what’s inside
my personality and knowledge is what I think matters more

You think my past is something that’s to be made fun of
I think my past has made me become myself
i’ve found the true meaning of a warrior but you’ll never care
ky Jun 2016
going back a few years
when i was just a little girl
stayed up all night
wondering where you were

whenever i asked mum
she would start to cry
and whisper in my ear
it'll all be okay

confused i hugged her
but still i was just a child
knew you were gone
but thought you'd come back

now more than ever
i want to know
why you'd left us
left us in the cold

every now and then
i try convincing myself
that you'd still come back
even though i know you won't
ky Oct 2016
white flakes of wintery snow
softly peck my face
his fingers caress my shoulders
warmth radiating from his body
making me draw him closer
I look up and gently plant a kiss
lingering for longer than needed
and finally I could fall
you
ky Mar 2017
you
the sultry, soothing sound of your voice
overlies the war in my mind
masking my dark, hidden thoughts
and disguising them as soft-kissed words
instead of vengeful screams

you bring me so close to the edge, so close to breaking you
and yet,
here I am, surrendering to only you
ky Jul 2016
you don't know me
not then
not now
we could've had something
something special
if it wasn't for all of your games
you pretended all along
you don't know me
not then
not now
ky Feb 2016
When you're all alone
and you feel you've lost your way
just know that I'm here
and I'll always stay

Even in tough times
we'll make it through
don't listen to what they say
it's not true

I know it's hard
to stay alive and put up a good fight
although deep in your heart
you know nothing's right

but keep going strong
it's gonna pay off someday
and thank all your haters
then keep going your way
This is what a best friend is for. They help you get through tough times and I love all my friends.
ky Mar 2016
do you know how many people are desperate
desperate to look young
to feel young

so don't just exist through your early years
you'll never make memories
you'll miss all the fun

— The End —