You have always been
There has never been

anyone

but you.

And yet it seems like I am competing
with the world,
with your life’s pace
with a dozen other hers
to whom I could never compare

and yet to me,
even when you choose not to fight,
you always win.
Always.

I have always been there
I still am
I will be here
waiting
painstakingly,
for the clock to move
and until then
I will still be here.

I cannot count how many times I have already
consoled you from the deepest pains,
and truly, with every word I say,
I hurt as much.

I hurt because I hurt for you,
I hurt because of you
but  most of all,
I hurt because you were never true.

It’s quite ironic that I am still waiting for you
Even when I know “you” will never come
I hope this faith lives on

or else…