What are you doing, why are you here
Why can’t you let my heart be at piece
Why did you have to plant, your wicked dark seed
What are you doing, why are you here
Please can you stop, stop filling me with fear
No matter where I turn, you’re always near
What are you doing, why are you here
Please go away, don’t try to get in
I can’t take anymore, I hate how I’ve been
Why are you hovering, around on all sides
I feel so attacked, I feel so alive
Everything is bright and beautiful within
Everything is perfect, until you get in.

This fear
I thought
I could destroy it
I thought
I could end it
I thought
It was
Just a demon
I had to conquer
And just
When I thought
I had won
I realized
My folly
This was no demon
This couldn't be killed
This
Would not end
This
Would haunt me
This
Was a ghost

How do you fight
what you can't ****?

My sun
Light of my life

No matter the distance
You still keep me warm

No matter the distance
You light up the world

And no matter
How close I get
I can't catch up

I'd rather burn
Than spend the night alone

Not knowing made me anxious
made me prudent
carefully made me stop
brake for taking a break
for my own mind's sake
I crop
for health with stealth
It forbade me to
froze me, paralyzed, a ghost
It made me lose it, almost
though I never really won,
still I never lost
not knowing

We are all going to die.
We are all going to be forgotten.
It doesn't matter if your grave is six feet deep and three feet wide,
Or if your body was slung over the side,
of a boat in motion
from hands devoid of emotion
We all end up just the same.
Decayed and rotten.
Forgotten.
If that isn't Equality,
I don't know what is.

If I cried
when I was baby
you came right away

So why does it make a difference
now that I'm older