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Katherine Laslie Mar 2017
A little lie
A little word
And you're put under my spell
You never knew
You never even doubted
That I was telling the truth
You should have known
You didn't even try
You took my words
And believed them every time
I held you in my arms
Until my heart became cold
You never even second guessed
You didn't even try
And came running back to me
Each time my hands reached
To you again
You poor thing
How you must despair
Being thrown around in circles
How aweful you must feel
Being stomped into the earth
Tell me, how does it feel
To be infused into dirt?
I can hear you weeping
From the corners
I can feel you reaching
Towards the pain
So addicting
You can't get enough of me
You must be starving
As I give you nothing but remnants
Nothing but a piece of me
As you hunger for more
I will become your destruction
As you feed off my addiction
It must be so lonely
Always being barely within
Arm's reach
Falling so hard; so fast
Do you really think I would take your hand?
Katherine Laslie Mar 2017
I've never wanted
To die
So badly
In my stupid life
Things could go wrong
Or maybe even
Fine
But it doesn't
Change the urge I feel inside

I want to
Take that step
To explore with the dead
With no feelings
No regrets
I want to end
This toxic existence
I live

I am the enemy
This time
For once, not the victim
The antagonist
In the tragic tale
That ends in blood
Staining the walls
The floors
Everything

More than anything
I want to go out
In colors
Of passionate red
As my life
Flows from my veins
I'll only be glad
I'm ending your pain
Katherine Laslie Mar 2017
Your life was like
A sunrise dawning
On a moonless night
It gave me
A sense of hope,
Brought from another life
And I tried and I tried
To make everything right
But the pain, how it gave
me no reason to fight
But your presence alone
Brought a light into my darkened world
I clinged upon your every word
Basked in the melodic tones of your voice
You whispered sweetly to me
And told me I could be anything I dreamed
But these dreams were not
Created by me
Time passed on, and I opened my eyes
To see my sweet dream be whisked away
Your claims were a fraud
And your whispers were lies
And I stood in disbelief
That I believed in your disguise
I tried to be someone
Tried to be better
Tried to be the me that would please you better
And now I've become nothing
But broken in your hands
And the fact is: reality tastes bitter
When lies are all you have
Katherine Laslie Feb 2017
I never understood
Why everyone tends to walk out on me
Of all life's lessons to teach
Why was this one so common?

My mom left the family
And took me away, without asking me if I would rather stay
My brother joined the army, we only spoke through letters
My father was alone with his heartbreak and I could not console him
My best friend went off to college and I couldn't join her because I didn't have the money to make my life better
My beloved aunt passed away, almost unexpectedly. I never had a chance to say goodbye. To tell her I loved her one last time
The tragedy struck
I've seen God take a life in front of my own eyes. A horrid accident that you only see in movies. A boy I grew up with and had known nearly my entire life.
A first love, torn from my arms and was forbade to see. This separation was equivalent to him dying to me
My dear friend moved away and became ill,  he was such a cheerful boy and died so very young.

All I am making is a point, you see
Of all life's lessons to teach
Why teach this one to me?
It's cruel and unfair
These things mess you up inside
After all the torture and torment
I began to lose my mind

Life, above all things
Taught me how to shut down
But the most important lesson it taught me:

Life taught me to be lonely
Katherine Laslie Feb 2017
What's true to your heart
Is a treasure to keep
Keep it close, tucked next to your soul
And don't ever let it to
It's times like these
Moments such as this
That keep you humble
Yet allow you to fly
It doesn't matter what it is
That gives your life
A reason to live
Embrace who you are
Become a dreamer
Let your feet leave the ground
And let your dreams
Set you free
The only life worth living
Is in doing what you love
And never giving up
On those silly dreams
Never letting go of all the foolish things
They say you'll never get there
But they don't know what it means
To soar through the sky
With open wings
Katherine Laslie Feb 2017
The hardest part
About making a mistake
Is the forgiveness
That it takes to get past it

Trying to forgive others
Comes easy, with time

Forgiving yourself
Forces you to literally
Change how you feel
And it becomes difficult
And tears away at the mind

Above all, the hardest part
Is all the reminders around you
Day after day
Teasing and taunting you
About something that is in the past

The hardest part is the people
Who remind you constantly
Of what you did
Of how they felt
Or even the outcome
They tell you to let things go
Say that it's in the past
And they turn around and blame you
As if time really never passed

Then the blame
The shame
The hurt you felt
Rages through you as a fury

I want to forget
I don't want to miss
the life I'm living now
Over something I can't fix

I don't need you to remind me
Of all of my mistakes
Katherine Laslie Feb 2017
I think the biggest curse of them all
Is life

It stretches and bends you
Until you break
And never hesitates

Death seems like an escape
But has cold, bitter hands
And a beautiful, warm face

Not to mention
Life is temporary
Death is permanent
Life can be amazing
Still, death is eminent

All through our lives
We weigh out which one
We would rather have
When things go good, we choose to live
But we would throw it all away
The very moment when things get bad

Between all the contradicting
One fact still remains
That one simple fact that completely separates:
Life is a choice
We choose to live
Every day, even when it's our life that we want to give
Life is waking up
And choosing that this day
Will be a good one
Just one choice
Can make life miserable
Just one choice
Can make life worth living
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