you remind me with the bright spring day when the sunlight peeks around the green leaves; you remind me with a nice summer day when the blue ocean hits the shoreline and the birds humming sweet lullabies. and i hope somewhere somehow you will find your path as the sunflowers turn around along the field to see your smile. and i hope you will smile at the shooting star as you close your eyes and make wishes like its the last time of your life. and i hope the constellation and also the moon will always lighten up your dark sky and be there for you even in your darkest times. and i hope you will see all the city lights from the ferris wheel at night and the butterflies inside your stomach will dance until you feel so weak and i hope you will reach all your dreams and always be happy out there. and i know you don't realize this but i hope you understand how much i care about you and how much i love you.

I dream mostly
in flowers and
in the shape of
your words
pressed quietly
into the skin
behind my right
ear.

lately i've just been feeling
so empty
and i know that
there are a lot of people
who care about me
and who want me
to live on
and fight this
******* impossible war
but i can't,
i just can't.
no one really knows
how impossible my life is
and i have no intention of
telling them.

You tell me to
Write a poem
About how wonderful
The world is.
You have given me
An impossible task,
For the world is not wonderful.
It is dark and
Frightening
And I fear I may never
Escape it.

It holds so many brilliant
And beautiful things
Only to lure it into the
Depths of its darkness.

Beware.

It's midnight and
I'm awake and
I miss you.

It's been a week since we've touched
and I don't know how much longer I can go on
because I'm addicted to you
and your love.

Oh God, I miss you.
I miss you so much.

fill
me
up