Life has given me many situations and different types circumstances
But the fact that I keep going through problems instead of making my way around them puzzles me
Why do I keep telling myself and others im fine when questioned
Even I know most of the time I'm just kidding myself as soon as I respond
Why do I keep trying to chase after a goal that seems impossible not just that also disappointing to me if accomplished
I can say its because I want whats best for me my family and others or maybe its what I allways dreamed of doing but even better its my goal in life or its what I've set out for
These are all just ways to cover up how we really feel about life and the things we want to accomplish
I'll tell you the truth on why I set out to accomplish things
I go through diversity just to impress my step dad the only father figure I will ever know
I try hard and been trying scince I was a teenager
But even though I try hard just to receive some fatherly love he still thinks I'm a lying disrespectful unworthy stupid *******
I try to impress my mom
A women who has never paid any attention to me and has abandoned me throughout my life coming and going whenever she feels like it
I try to hard tell my self I'm perfect because in this dark and hurtful world my self-esteem is hurt bad and I don't want it to fall any lower
I try to hard to make sure my daughter doesn't fall like I did so she doesn't feel as if her life has been a total failure
I try to hard make something of my self seeing as i could not have came to the world any lower
This is why I try
These are reasons we try
To fix things we dont like to protect people we care about to get things we never had
This is how we really feel but never express