It's 3 am but she's still wide awake
no matter how hard she tried
she couldn't stop the ache
the night was dead and so were her feelings
the pain in her heart was terribly hurting

Pacing back and forth in her room
trying her best to let the feelings loose
all she could think of right now
was her pills and razors
to her that's the only way,
the only answer

And with all her might
she avoided the suicide
she closed her eyes and prayed
for the demons inside her
to subside

Torn apart by the people
who treated her wronged
she's just a girl who wanted
to feel belonged

Her eyes were swollen and burning
from the tears that had fallen
as she lied on her bed
with her pillow clutch tightly
by her side
eyes closed but her thoughts were
still running wild

All she wanted was to fall asleep
because to her that's the only
place where everything
is still all right
no problems
no sorrows
no pain

As she stared at the empty ceiling
of her spacious bed room
at this point she was
already numb
the clock started to ring
it showed 6 am

She got up out of bed and went
straight to the toilet
the mirror showed her face
looking absolutely tired
as she looked closer she saw
dark circles appeared beneath her eyes
so that's when she said to herself
*"I've lost to my thoughts again this time"

I push you away
But I want you to stay.