To fight for love, I skim through thoughts
How did things go so wrong?
I remember timid methods to problem-solve.
Learning this took too long
When I was easy, I remember lies I bought.
I'd be anything just to belong
Mrs.Guided by things mama forgot.
Guided by lyrics in a song
Mrs.Understood for the TRUTH I sought.
I remember smoking truth from a ****

I've been up, wondering about you
Like how you liked your foods
When you was here, your moods
And just the things you'd do
I've been up, thinking about this
Them bony hands and **** fists,
Strong arms and solid wrists,
Soft eyes and the poetic mist
I've been up, dreaming about us
No longer lovers but a friendship's a must
Continued progress yet the ****** dust
At first sight we were no doubt an exotic lust

is it really so crazy
me wanting you & your baby?
i mean, is this reality?
the magnificence lost is sad to me...
i know not to blame now
i get no where that way but somehow
i take responsibility
for how my actions shook you into leaving what did i expect, yo...
our feelings is all we individually know
i mean, ican see how you MIGHT feel
from this end i pray one day you might heal
And i pray you reconsider too
that love overlaps me; a ***** into your boo
with you, i'll never let go of how i feel
because that brings me to a special place which gives my soul its seal
I'm keeping it
And a cold shoulder to anyone who threatens it
i am good alone i suppose
but with you it is when I feel i am whole
Peace
Love

Last October I was home with you
Lately Im doing my best building a home without you
At home I keep an empty chair for you
In our closet there's hangers left vaccant for you  
Memories is how I will keep you
Even in old age I wanna seek you
With your past I will always love you
No slack can take back loyalty I learn from you
This is how Im home with you
Even in your absence I wont let go of you

Truu

•You cared for me, when it was hard to care about yourself,
•Charmed by your magnificence, all I wanted was to help.
•We both had appreciation for arts of many kinds.
•Ahhh, your style and talent.. I just miss your vibes.
•But now I am starting to see things for what they really are.
•Bottom line is I hurt you and I took it way too far!
•Inside my head, you read my mind sometimes; I didn't understand it.
• Poetic Justice and Romance Rhymes; you flew the plane and I riskingly landed it!
•You see, I do this to people who are the closest to me.
•You were closer to me than even I've ever been, honestly!
•So, my issue is rooted in my deepest crevice; a most inward core belief:
•My love of self is completely ravished; making me feel indefinitely unworthy.
•It shook me up when you spoke out loud.
•I mean the very words out your mouth...
•You taught me not to give up but fight!
•You brought my spirit into light.
•We gave each other hope in those moments.
•Together we were no longer lonesome.
•Thank you for that Jason.
•Life is coming together now..my issues..Im facing.
•I know how I did you was wrong.
•I lived out of fear for so long.
•If I can take anything from this whole story.
•It would be to live in faith and not to worry.