You're not in love,
you just like
entertainment.
Blood boiling,
tense muscles
put your mind
at ease.

You're not kissing,
you just like
the gesture of hope:
the softer the lips
the harder it is
to walk away.

You quote their texts
like you're quoting
scripture.
The tweets you study
cause your heart
to freeze.

You're like a god
without a people:
You're looking
for anyone
to believe
in you.

I dreamt about
a ****** t.v.
movie.
I put myself
in a lover's shoes.
I said, "You're
not that lonely
but you like
the attention.
And I guess
I'd like to
give it
to you."

It's amazing how one person can touch your heart and you're never quite the same. Sometimes I feel as though I've painted this beautiful picture of you that I can only see; and that's fine because love needs faith. I have faith. I have enough faith for the both of us.

I am in a really serene place in my life right now. I have decided that I need to write everyday because the only way to get better at something is keep practicing, reading and expanding. I want so much. I want it all. It's cliché to want the "bad" guy to change for you, but I want that. I believe in him; he just doesn't believe in himself, which is sad, but it's life. It is amazing how unconditional love works. I didn't stop loving him when didn't reciprocate it, I loved him harder. I am past wanting the relationship to work, I just want peace between us. I want hope. I want the love to never die.