You
         Are
                  A
                       *****

Was it you,
Or the idea of you

I just wanted to be the person who was always there for her. Who would make her happy. Who could put his arm around her to comfort her. To hold when she's scared. To be with when she feels alone. To kiss when she's happy, sad, confused. I just wanted to be her's.

I think I lost myself
Lost in somthing that I don't even know
Or how I got lost in the first place
I think I just needed to find myself
But not the person I lost
A new person who was ready to take over
Someone who learned from his past
Ready to start a new
I have found myself
And I am ready make a change

Everybody has that one person they cant live without
For me it is my best friend
I dont know what I would do without him
He is always there for me
When I need someone to make me smile
Or when I have nobody to talk to
Tomorrow is his birthday
So I can tell him how much I appriciate having him in my life

I havnt written here in a while
I know what I write here aren’t actually poems I just like to share my thoughts
I had always been the one who ended a relationship
Not saying much there were only two.
So when the time came for this one to end I was very shocked
I know nobody is reading this because everyone I would use this with left it behind
So I will use it to type how I feel
I never thought it would end like this
You were the perfect girl
The person who was always there for me when I needed you
You always cared and comforted me
I couldn’t have asked for a better girlfriend
I wish I could go back and do things differently
I would try a little harder
Tell you much I care one extra time
Do everything I could to be there for you like you were for me
I know you say it’s just who I am and I can’t help it but I would do anything for you
I just wanted it to work out as much as you did
I just want you to be happy
But I also want to be the reason you are happy
So when you said being with me makes you unhappy it made me feel like the worst kind of person
The kind of person who isn’t there for someone who needs them
I’m sorry for not caring enough
I’m sorry for not loving you enough
I know you don’t want me to be but I can’t help it
All I want is you and I didn’t see it coming
So when u called me that night after u left me and drove away the last thing I expected is what came out of your mouth.
For I am truly heartbroken

I could have chose
It could have been you.
But like always I am oblivious
Oblivious is who I am
It is who I will be.
But from where should my actions come?
They shall come from my thoughts
Not the thought of yours
I should have chose
It should have been you
But here I am with none
Not even you

The things that you want most in life
Are the hardest to retrieve

I like to smile at people who dislike me because I am an *******

I didn't know
I don't know how to act
How to show you how I feel
But do I even want to show you how I feel
Or should I show you how I felt
I don't know
I didn't know how you felt
Or how you feel right now
All I know is how I feel right now
And right now all I want it for you to be happy
And I am willing to do whatever it takes for you to truly be happy

Here is a challenge for you all.
Try to have nothing but positive thoughts for one minute.
Then try two minutes
And eventually try a whole day
Challenge yourself see how long you can go with nothing but positive thoughts.
Its not easy but it's life changing

I feel like I've been chasing you forever
Like you are so far away I'll never reach you
But I know I can't give up
Because I know I will reach you some day
Someday day I will finally make it
I WILL catch up to you
And you will be able to see how much effort I put into chasing you
And how much you mean to me
So when this day comes I hope you appriciate it as much as I will

One of the most amazing feelings
Is going to bed with your heart beating louder then ever
Beating so loud because of the way she makes you feel
Because she makes you feel special
No matter if she knows it or not you love her
And she may not know how she feels
But you know how you feel
And that is all that matters at the end of the day
Because how you feel is what makes that beat
That feeling
That most amazing feeling

She said to tell the truth, you must trust
So trust I shall and forget fear
Express my feeling and tell her I must
The way she makes me feel is unclear
The way my heart beats so fast
Or the way my body is surrounded with heat
She is so wise and sweet
Her poetry makes me feel like I'm on a cloud in the sky
I wanted to tell her but I didn't know how
He is nervous and afraid of her response
So he wrote in the way that she knows best
Hoping nothing is ruined
He waits for what feels like a million years

It doesn't come to me easy at times
I envy those with such natural talent
It seems to only come
When my mind is so empty with thoughts
That it is nothing but full of emotion
Then only then does it come to me
This is when I feel like a writer
During those late nights
When my mind has nothing but emotion

I thought I knew what I wanted
I thought I had everything planned out
But everything seems to be foggy
I'm not so sure what I want
It like I was almost at the finish line
But then I was blindfolded and spun around
I'm not really sure what to do
So I guess I'll just follow my path

**** it

Talking to you makes me feel like I'm in the clouds and in your heart

Knowing your chanced are slim to none
But you just can't give up
She means to much to you
But that might be your biggest reason to stop
You don't know if she is starting to like you
Or just too nice to tell you the truth
So I'm sitting here with my chest burning from sadness
And I don't know what to do

Who am I
I don't know who I am
I don't know who I have become
I don't know who I want to be
So I shall forget everything and leave it behind me
I shall start again, as new
So if you don't know who you are
Start over

Why is this happening
Is this how it must be
Is this the end
If so, is this because of me
Or is this just how things need to happen
Will our paths cross again
Will we ever be anything more
Or is my presence simply too much
Can this get worse or only better
Why must this happen
Will I ever know
Will things return to normal
Or is change the only thing I need

You think you know—
People, places, everything.
But with the slightest of words,
Everything with fall apart.
Dreams will vanish.
The closest will leave.
You will be left with nothing—
but a beating heart.
To fix the broken,
And repair the soul.
But everything is different,
And it will stay different.
And it will never go back.