Into the shades of black,
she walked alone.
Down the narrow path,
covered with stone.

Creeping in the shadows,
the unknown lurked.
The darkness lay low,
displaying a smirk.

The moment of silence,
a rise to the peak.
Controlled patience;
not for the weak.

Suddenly, she turns,
to face her attack.
The feeling, it burns,
everything is black.

Not a sound heard,
or a glimpse to see.
No spoken words,
during our flee.

Executed perfectly,
she lay as we wait.
Surely she will plea,
in the dawn of her fate.

Anticipation rises,
as her eyes open.
Wearing disguises,
we begin the fun.

Fear covers her face,
as the tears stream.
Dressed in all lace,
just like my dream.

"It's time to play,
don't be afraid."
Behave and obey,
you will be laid."

Sweet pleasures,
delivered to you.
Soft like feathers,
a fantasy come true.

Feeling your touch,
she is lost in delight.
Liking it rough;
no longer a fight.

She has succumbed;
gaining her appetite.
Moaned and hummed,
knowing it's right.

Once unwelcome,
yet now begged for.
Each time she comes,
she still wants more.

Taken to a new high,
she is now an addict.
Spreading her thighs,
she asks to be licked.

Left with silence,
in the absence,
of your presence,
I simply remain.

Drifting through,
without a clue,
of what I should do,
I suffer this pain.

Wishing on stars,
to heal my scars;
the distance, so far-
I'm tearing apart.

I am not whole,
only half a soul,
my love, you stole-
my beating heart.

Each time I stare,
into your gorgeous eyes,
I see a long wonderful journey,
into our future together.

Each time I feel,
the warmth of your hold,
I drown in the serenity knowing,
the comfort that you give.

Each time you say,
how beautiful you find me,
my heart swells and smiles,
cherishing your love.

Each time we kiss,
forgetting to breathe,
I am carried away with passion,
and the need for your lips.

Each time I hold you,
I hope that you can feel,
the endless love in my heart,
which I hold just for you.

Each time I say,
you are the love of my life,
please know that I say this,
from the depths of my soul.

Each time we must,
part ways for a while,
my heart aches with pain,
needing you by my side.

Each time you stare,
into the window of my soul,
I open every door to you,
bearing true nakedness.

Each time you laugh,
I am taken to a place,
that fills me with pure bliss,
grateful for every moment.

Each time you wake,
next to me in the morning,
I know I am looking,
at the other half of me.

Each time you rest,
next to me at the end of day,
I thank my lucky stars,
for bringing you to me.

Each time I see,
your **** *** before me,
everything in this crazy world,
feels so amazingly right.

Copyright ©2015 Jamie Johnson

The dangers of life,
wait around every corner,
for each unsuspecting victim.

The pains of life,
increase with every day,
a struggle to keep fighting.

The choices of life,
filled with complications,
and heart-breaking repercussions.

The realities of life,
always harsh and cruel,
unable to escape the ugly truth.

The gifts of life,
unknowingly disguised,
accompanied by many lessons.

The treasures of life,
seem to be so few,
retaining that false hope.

The cycle of life,
never set in stone,
endlessly unpredictable.

How did I ever let you,
into my guarded heart?
How did this day come,
two worlds torn apart?

I cry with disbelief,
for this pain that I feel.
I cry with disbelief,
that this day is truly real.

I gave everything I had,
anytime that you needed.
Only to be left with this;
a pain, deeply seeded.

I ask the Universe why,
has this happened to me?
I beg the Universe please,
take me away to be free.

Where is this other land,
the world that is to be next?
In this world, I feel as though,
I am an unwelcome guest.

Despite all of my efforts,
it always ends the same.
I'm so tired of this life,
I **** at this awful game.

Please let it just stop,
I can't take anymore.
I am dying with pain,
stronger than before.

I can't actually decide,
whether I really hate you.
But one thing is certain,
this resentment is true.

Such as a puzzle is confusing, that you are to me.
New discoveries I approach, and so may it be.
That, however I cannot, bear surprises of thee.
Such will, I do not have, to let it be.

Too often, within myself, I fight.
Making poor attempts, at views of right.
My vision askew, yet only slight.
A day to come, of achieving right.

Tearing into fragments, over one's heart.
Torturing thoughts, bring me apart.
Pierced by points, sharper than a dart.
Yet no desire stirs, to be apart.

Swallowed in anger, carried by sadness.
Thy mind drifts slowly, into madness.
Wearing a comical look of happiness,
I sit solemnly, within this madness.

Your glory is found in my weakness,
and your pride in my pain,
your purpose is meaningless,
for when your gone I will remain.

You enjoy the cruelty within,
as mercy is what you lack,
you embrace my suffering,
like how I see through cracks.

My body swells from your punishment,
as I lye helpless with scars and bruises,
my heart and soul cry for help,
"Please help me, Lord Jesus."

You pass judgment on society,
justice is your duty,
your intentions are evil,
but they are worse when your moody.

There is no such thing as fair to you,
only you against the rest,
results are commanded by your words,
which is usually death.

You can physically abuse and harm me,
by ripping, tearing, or burning my skin,
I will stand before you and smile,
for I will hide the pain within.

Distinguished by endearments,
a young man is on the rise.

Exploring the lands' curves,
he peers out behind blue eyes.

Venturing along his path,
his inner light shines intensely.

Observation has revealed,
he will give to others immensely.

Noticed by many, for there are,
so few that remain.

Where do you turn when you are lost,
and the world continues moving past you?
The faces are blurs, as colours swim around you.
Drowning in the chaos, you are alone.
Thrashed around by the current that carries you.

This sea of madness seems endless.
There is no ground on which you can catch your breath.
No sight to give you serenity.
In this dark blue, you are alone.

As strength fails you, you are at the disposal of your
weakness; flesh and muscle.
You hear only the screams of desperation,
and the cry for survival.
Knowing that soon, you will slip beneath the surface.

The sparks of life you witness around you,
are distracting only for the second.
While your heart has been warmed in that moment,
you know that hope has passed for you.

Despair seems like sunshine compared to the darkness,
that surrounds and swallows your soul.

As your weight brings you down,
you feel the weight of the world lessen.
Although the pressure increases,
while you descend further into the depths of this darkness,
and the light remains out of reach,
you can find peace in certainty.

The stress of wondering disappears.
Taking the voices with it.
The ones filling your thoughts with absurdities and nonsense,
of having a place in this world.
Of making a difference.

You know where your fate lye's;
in the depths of darkness.

Our fears restrain each of us,
all the while, being driven by them.
We desperately strive to overcome,
this worlds capacity for mayhem.

Without the hold of fear,
our possibilities are endless.
If we broke free of our chains,
power is what we would possess.

A power full of dangers,
with no fear of a consequence.
Filling this plagued earth,
with so little consonance.

If my fear should dissipate,
the evil inside will break free.
Destroying all that's in my life,
including the person I call me.

This pain that has been written,
in so many colours of ink.
Would be unleashed to reign,
severing my humanity, my link.

Without the fear of pain,
I could become a monster.
I could indulge in the suffering,
I could become a conqueror.

If the fear should dissipate,
the love hidden would shine.
Bringing out the happiness,
that is buried deep inside.

On the surface I pretend, I try,
to feel that innocence again.
Where everything is a wonder,
and everyone is your friend.

Without the fear of pain,
I would give my love to all.
I would make everyone happy,
I would stand up tall.

What would you do if you weren't afraid, you ask?**

I would love myself and this world. I would make this world a place that everyone wanted to be in. I would be the strength that so many lack, and the voice that has been taken from so many.

With each word, I fall deeper
into this emptiness called life.
With each breathe, I suffocate,
from all that has crowded inside.

Tired long ago, yet I still stand
centered in this maddening cycle.
Broken down, this strength fades
hurt by the growing void of love.

My warnings to you have failed,
persistence, resulting in your mistake.
My weakness for love, and hope
for it in my life was mine.

I thought I had found my partner,
who will help me see this through.
Instead, I feel I have a roommate
my love, this has become you.

I could not regret the memories,
you have given me so much.
Though I do wish I was whole,
so you don't drown with me.

Silenced by fears, I can't speak
to reveal how apart we are.
My love for you remains, only now
accompanied by the pain you bring.

I have lost my only friend here,
drifting away as a distant lover.
Your absence makes me push further,
leaving me little hope in darkness.

I tell no one, as I am all alone,
I cry for every bit of me left, as
I know where this path will end.
I am losing myself once again.

In the greens that brought warmth,
only the white cold remains to decorate.
Stirring from behind the window pane,
sits a woman pondering her fate.

Peering out above the world absently,
she falls into the depths of thought.
Pleading to nothing but the emptiness,
she cries for all she has fought.

It seems as though her war is endless,
being blinded by each victorious battle.
Happiness seeps further away each time,
leaving her to a maddening prattle.

Hope, begins to feel foolish to her,
yet she holds on tightly to the flame.
Even in nothing, she believes something-
that all of this must change.

Amidst the luscious valley,
covered in varying greens,
sits a desperate soul,
absorbing the beautiful scene.

Outlined by the mountains,
this ivory tower seems small,
yet, like most things-from outside,
you simply don't see it all.

The lonely heart that beats,
does so, with furious hope,
for these whispering voices,
make it impossible to cope.

Bearing the depths of need,
leaves an invisible scar,
through the heart of lies,
I can only see so far.

Like the clouds of winter,
judgement is thick and hazy,
even submerged in beauty,
one can still go crazy.

The power of love is,
a curse from which I suffer,
withheld is the extent of yours,
therefore making it rougher.

In days of young and past,
he shone bright with his smile.
In those times, he knew not,
of what was to come in a while.

He was happy and curious,
as all young children are.
Though the extent of that,
followed with a permanent scar.

Being the youngest of five,
left a lot to live up to.
Each of us would pick on him,
less and less as he grew.

Still, the teasing remained,
from society and his peers.
So many long nights spent,
cold and alone, in tears.

He lives with a burden,
and grew up in neglect.
But if you were to meet him,
he's one you wouldn't forget.

He has accepted himself,
loving the person he is.
I know that he can see,
that he's one of life's gifts.

He has put aside his shame,
and embraces his style.
This tried soldier of mine,
has come many weary miles.

He has faced many challenges,
standing strong and true.
My dearest little brother,
this soldier of mine, is you.

Each day my heart grew,
with the love I feel for you,
life has never been the same,
since you've introduced your name.

You make me feel coy,
and fill everyday with joy,
I never knew life to be great,
but meeting you was merely fate.

You turn simple into exciting,
you're a reason to keep fighting,
the touch of you is like magic,
you make life ecstatic.

I am pleasured by your kiss,
and embrace your tenderness,
I cherish the seduction of your lips,
I treasure our bliss.

Day by day we continued on,
even though something was wrong,
acting like it did not exist,
yet now my heart cannot resist.

I must speak the truth,
let our memories show the proof,
my heart has strayed,
but I swear you were not played.

I kept my word as I said,
I never laid in another man's bed,
but I have come to realize,
that my life is full of lies.

It is not you that I desire,
and though I hate to be a liar,
You are not my only love,
there is something else I think of.

I cannot seem to explain myself,
cause it is not just someone else,
I now feel differently for you,
but not the way that I use to.

We are different and we knew it,
but we just do not fit,
now I have to continue on,
this road of mine that is long.

You think it is easy for me,
cause I did it more times than three,
but you do not know how I feel,
I cannot believe this is all real.

Do not let this be your end,
you have managed as just friends,
now I must let you go,
yet my pain you will never know.