Though you reside thousands of miles away,
You are still in my thoughts each day,
For the sweet things that you say,
Making my path a brighter way.

Each soul carries their own light,
A glow that suits them just right,
One that will turn your night,
from cold darkness to a warm bright.

A powerful symbol of expression,
To be seen through first impressions,
Only through your own discretion,
Leaving my mind full of questions.

Though I have yet to witness this,
Does not mean I am not full of bliss,
For each time we part I will miss,
Your messages that end with a kiss.

I never imagined it to be true,
Someone as sweet and kind as you,
Making people smile the way you do,
For these days, there are too few.

With that, I end these words here,
Reminding you to never live in fear,
For you are special, which is clear,
You act with a heart simply sincere.

Beating intensly at a fast pace,
my heart begins to sprint as if in a race,
provoking thoughts of you are the cause,
never seeming to gain a moment to pause.

Accompanying this is the confusion I feel,
deciphering within my world what is real,
attempting to foresee the end result,
yet lacking a definite source to consult.

Aching at the pain withheld from you,
knowing exactly where my heart lye's true,
trembling as I'm overwhelmed with emotion,
surrounding me as far and wide as the ocean.

A deep sense of loss for myself exists,
yet the love I have strongly persists,
despite the fears that I obtain from you,
our love, is a hope that I still wish to pursue.

With thee, thy heart is blessed,
Leaving, thy soul at rest.
Thy dearest love, thou is,
Thy heart beats, for only his.

Forever indebted, thy will be,
For a love, such as thee.
Keeping thy thoughts at peace,
Speaks only, for the least.

True pleasure, thou brought,
Thus taken, not fought.
Unfolded as such, thou is thy destiny,
As is a cure; a perfect remedy.

Thus love; is of no class-
An indescribable, amount of mass.
A sacred gift, thy will treasure.
For our love, holds no measure.

Silence is unattainable beneath the heavy layers,
Each plastered with an unbearable lie,
Gaining a truth with each whisper,
While violently dancing with my insecurities.

Reflections assume an unknown identity,
Tangled in a web of hate and pain,
Behold-the creature has appeared,
Revealing a grin beyond ugliness.

Unwilling to admit the obvious,
Flight is taken to a haven buried deep,
Ignoring the dark company which settled-
Allows this passenger full control.

Final breakdown has been initiated,
Susceptible to all that has been clouded,
Great tides rise with immense force,
Adequately portraying the deceit.

Please take away my pain
all my sorrow and tears.
Please take away this hate,
and this never ending fear.

My hurt is engraved so deep,
into my soft supple heart.
For years I've suffered,
lying helpless in the dark.

I need you to be my angel,
and rescue me from hell.
I need you to be careful with the pieces,
from my broken heart that fell.

I need the comfort of your words,
whispered like sweet songs.
I need these horrible burdens,
to be forgotten and forever gone.

I carry secrets so dark,
hidden deep inside.
I've burdened myself,
with no where to hide.

I wouldn't dare tell a soul,
about the things I've done.
I couldn't begin to explain,
how I found it fun.

I swear I didn't know,
the effects it would cause.
If only I gave a thought,
to the moment I paused.

Now today I live in grief,
absolute sorrow.
Trying to escape within,*
hoping not to see tomorrow.

High ledges,
burning flames,
screaming voices,
of their saviours' name.

Confused minds,
many souls,
they belong to me,
throw them in a hole.

Bury them deep,
so they die,
bury their heads,
cover their cries.

Smother their dreams,
fill them with nightmares,
do as you please,
for I don't care.

Revenge I shall seek,
delivered to you,
then torture your soul,
'til I see right through.

When I had nothing,
you made me feel guilty.
You were suppose to be there,
and love me unconditionally.

I needed you most,
in my time of despair.
Yet that was the time,
I felt you didn't care.

I stood before you,
and all the rest.
As I took the blade,
and slit my wrist.

You said nothing,
didn't even move.
Just sat there staring,
while eating your food.

Then you asked me,
"do you think your cool?"
While you sat there,
thinking I was a fool.

My reply was "no,
I did it for your attention."
But that didn't matter,
you still wouldn't listen.

You broke my heart,
and did it so blunt.
That's part of the reason,
I almost jumped.

On my way to the bridge,
I swore it was the only way.
Tears fell uncontrollably,
knowing you wouldn't forget this day.

I waited for the perfect moment,
then I climbed over the gate.
I knew I had to do it quickly,
I was so sure this was my fate.

Even though I was scared,
looking down at the 401,
There wasn't anything,
anyone could have done.

A crowd stood behind me,
they begged me in fright,
The only reason I froze,
is because I'm afraid of heights.

The police soon came,
yelled to come back over.
As I went to step down,
they pulled me back over.

The blade slices in deep,
the pain is strong.
The blood taste so good,
there's nothing wrong.
I'll leave it all behind,
without a single thought.
It'll all be over,
with a single shot

No one believed me,
or listened to what I had to say.
What's about to happen,
was the only way.
My heart and soul are hurting,
I don't want to cry.
All my worries are gone,
But so am I..