i know i push my luck
will i ever be enough?
it’s so hard to trust
i’m just tryna gain your love

baby it’s hard for me to expose myself
maybe it’s all the **** i’ve been dealt
i’m so afraid
this feeling just don’t go away

around my heart like a barricade
i know you see tham caution tape
it’s written all over my face
wanna be a hero?
let me see your cape
i’m so tired of hiding
but what are you providing?

i throw myself just to get hurt
i put in all my heart
but sometimes it’s never enough
and i get torn apart

i just want someone that i can love
but what if that’s too much to ask for?

it’s apparent that i ask too much
read up on newton’s 3rd law
but you don’t believe in such
much to my reaction
you show little to no action
& that’s a distraction
i won’t have
but i’ve had it up to here
some **** i will no longer bare
will no longer be your puppeteer

i put in all this work
twenty four / seven
just to get buried in the dirt
but if you do not appreciate my art
than you do not get my heart

i guess it was all the lies
so insert into my eyes
into my mind
what i have now visualized

to drop dead weight
that’s very outdated
to look back on how i was baited
now you’ve had a chance to see how i’ve been created

so i’ll push my luck
on to the next bet
i’m still on the search for love
but this time i won’t sweat

            love yours truly ,
                       no longer in debt

cheers, to the pain
to the boy who forgot your name
to the one who makes you crazy
to the ones getting faded

hold your head up high and your drink up higher

ok get this..
you chose me as a pawn in this game
simply to be moved around
to your expense
used and abused
that's your taste
bitter isn't it?
making me the weakest piece
is just so easy
I was fooled
blinded by a fantasy
and so here I am
uttering my last few breaths
drowning myself in the suds of alcohol
the sour taste in my mouth
and the black empty space
drilled by your immaculate actions
a pawn, no more, no less
is all i'll ever be
in your game
that you only play.

dreaming of a place
where the world doesn't hate
dreaming of a place
of no mistakes
where we all get together and just create