and if right now, the world stopped moving

                                                         ­      who would you be thinking about

pity me

i have never felt so lonesome in a crowded room
we all know you didn't come here to see me
pity
pity
pity
is the only reason you glance my way

the girl with the difficult past
sits
alone
what a stereotype

stop pretending you mean it
and that
you
care
what a stereotype

you only want to talk to me
so you can be the one to push back the curtain
and
finally
reveal the wizard

such a shame
that i'm a ******* goddess

i wish I could take it all away

drink it all
let it burn my tongue
peel my throat as it slides down
digest in my stomach
disperse into my blood
where i can
hold it safe
and keep these pieces of you
for your beautiful being
doesn’t deserve to
carry this burden

i’ll fill you back up
with kisses on your tongue
truth in your throat as it slides down
butterflies in your stomach
peace in your blood
where I can
shut the lid, glue it down, lock it up
hold it safe
i’ll swallow the key
to rebuild the pieces of you
for your beautiful being
deserves
to smile again
…really smile

i wished i could fix it
and i tried

drank it all
let it burn my tongue
peeled my throat as it slid down
digested in my stomach
dispersed into my blood
where i tried to
hold it safe
and kept the pieces of, you
forced me
carry this burden

you pulled my soul out of me
to fill yourself back up
with kisses on your tongue
truth in your throat as it slides down
butterflies in your stomach
peace in your blood
where you
shut the lid, glued it down, locked it up
swallowed the key
to take the pieces of me
for your monstrous bean
took away, me

i wonder what its like
to not feel so deeply

                                                         ­                                   if there was a pill,
                                                                ­                    to finally forget it all...

To not remember the pain
poison, poured perfectly to the brim of my heart
To not remember your words
encompassing my mind, replaying
o
v
   e
    r
and
o
v
   e
    r
and
o
v
   e
    r
To not remember the tears
drowning the corpse you left, when you...
To not remember the goodbye
stuck inside the boxes
                filled with your memories
                left at your doorstep
                with our first kiss
To not remember you

but then I wonder what its like
to not feel so deeply

To not remember the love
you introduced me to, for the first time
To not remember your words
in between my poetry
o
v
   e
    r
and
o
v
   e
    r
and
o
v
   e
    r
To not remember the tears
from rapture, the first time you said it...
To not remember the hello
                filled with our memories
                beginning at your doorstep
                with our first kiss
To not remember you

                                                            ­                               i would not take it

Who are you to hold me
safe
with soft hands on fire?

                     when the want overdoses to a need
                                              my only serenity is our distance