Dear White Lies I was told as a child, though you came from the mouths of people I trusted the most, still I was betrayed by you. You came in the form of “I love you,” and “you’ll be okay,” and “I’ll never leave.” You were sharper than a knife and you twisted at my heart until finally it bled out onto a paper that would never be read by anyone else but you and I. I trashed a note that would make more of you enter into my brain and grow until finally you looked down upon me as if I were nothing more than a bug compared to you.
He used me Making me think he loved me Make me think that I loved him. He railed me in with his words, Building my trust. I shouldn’t have done it, I shouldn’t have said yes. I should have known to him in just an object to look at, Bringing my self confidence more down then it already is. He used me for “makeup material”. He just looks at me like my body is just something you buy. But when he told me I was “beautiful”, I knew it was fake. I could see the white lies he was telling me. Saying “oh but I really do love you” That wasn’t like him. I should’ve known that he was telling my white lies, Telling me stuff I want to hear Telling me pretty little lies. Like a thieving serpent. Comes quietly and bites giving you venom. The venom of fake love. When he texted me telling me what happened, I cut all my hopes and dreams away. He told me “Don’t cut of me im not worth it” But to me he was my everything. I helped him off the ground when his spine was acting up. I held him when he was scared. I set him on the couch making sure he was okay. But in the end he was just using me.
Black shoelace, tied in knots basks my face with paltry plots stole my heart like summer's sin heat is threatened by cool wind Rear view mirror, burned by glow reflects a frozen, fragile soul they appear, my warm woes white lies, turn from ash to coal Crave smoke rings, periled fade round' my solo fireplace truths can't find their crumbs to trace her sparrow, sings a love charade All my years, i'm alive caches in my brain's hard drive my White lies, wear a Black shoelace they delve deep, digest disgrace..