im torn between
reliving the old crush
the wandering eyes
smart remarks
knowing you want me
and yet feeding into it

putting on the right jeans
walking in the room
knowing that you're alone
and you want all of me
it's innocent teasing

but this is old
i was merely five
the remarks began
buying my food
i was claimed by you
screamed you loved me
everyone knew

yet you never make a move
my sister catches your eyes
tight shirt with a small waist
your lustful eyes glimpse
i want you to touch me
and you're coming more strong
you've waiting eleven years
can you not take the teasing?

I want to be real
Not fake
Something so good
You can't take a breath
Breathe
Love me for me
Not something I'm not
I'm far from lonely
And you're all that I've got

I am an addict with a pen
I indulge my sweetest sin
Cry for help although you can't hear me
I only see you in my dreams now
It's not enough
Funny how things change
How you decided to leave
All you left me with was
jealousy and **rage

I'm tired of those
who are supposed to make me feel better
making me feel like ****.

I can't just not be around you.

I can't say anything even vaguely critical of you.

I think you can read my mind.