To be unable to sleep without a drink in my system
To be unable to feel love, but seek it
To not know what beholds for me
But crave something

I feel so incredibly alone,
Summer is over and my birthday is tomorrow
I feel so low, all time low
I need something to believe in,
A war to fight for
To serve a purpose other than plating overpriced proteins

I feel stuck, unable to get myself out of this rut

It is 6 in the morning and I haven't slept yet
Im not tired
Falling skies and exposed bricks

Life has proven to be hard for me
I feel it all, everything I've done wrong
But I just cant let love feel

I am so incredibly alone

now close your eyes,
and please understand
that you are still young,
and the universe is endless,
and somehow,
everything will be okay

She's like a classic scene from a movie,
that will forever play on your head.
She's like a vinyl you'll always opt to,
for tunes to soothe the ache of your soul.
She's like your favorite book
that will always grace
the insipidity of your shelves.
She's your evening nostalgia
like a bedtime story
you'll never outgrow.

She's not supposed to stay with you,
and she didn't mean to anyway.
But some love just remain- unfading and still,
amidst the longest distance
this world can bestow,
amidst the most suffocating stretch
death can ever chastise.

You come and you go,
repetitive dream motions
driving a picture of
your face
into my little mouse heart.

Apparition of sleepless nights,
you smile- drop your bags
on my bedroom floor.
I nursed your broken bones
and kissed your fingertips,
crushing the passage of
time in my small hands
like so many impatiens.

And then came the storm clouds,
and you traveling north-
leaving no trace
of what once was;

only memories
like ashes
dissolving
in the rain.

Nowadays I know
That I still exist
Even when you don't say goodnight.

Vibrant vibes
You hide in your shell
All you do is lie
You live in your own hell
Wishing to die
When really life's swell

Roses are red, violets are blue
My heart's in pieces because of you

Roses are wilting, violets are drooping
I'm on a hospital bed, slowly dying

Roses are red, violets are blue
Why I killed myself, you'll never know.