His hands are gripping at my tail,
Hell born demons on my trail -
He thought he could bind me.

An angel in the sky
& I cannot align -
Please,
Wrought with confusion it just blinds me.

I cannot contain the pain is bursting from the frame
Man I hope that you hear this,
I still call your name when passion scorches rain
& I could almost be near bliss,
Then I'm well aware of the emptiness I share -
My bed it was made for a pair.

The man with golden teeth shares a soul with the Beast,
He sent me to a Hell dressed as Heaven.

I confess that I compressed my whole soul with this stress,
Once a mess of pure distress a naked flame I coalesce,
I turn into an inferno and I burn who dares caress,
I can heal and be better but first I must regress.

I'll forgive myself and say
That sometimes life goes this way
Maybe it's better not to stay
'Cause surely love finds its prey.

I won't go back to that place little reaper don't grin,
I won't plead or demand no I won't let you win,
I've locked down my mind I won't let you in,
All you have taken has worn me so thin.

I said no I said no I say no till I scream,
The scariest thing because I cannot dream,
The monsters the same it's the monster in me,
I can't quite reconcile this internal dichotomy.

I am now stronger than my weakened youth,
I could slam a door now to pull out a tooth,
Hindsight will teach but not show you the truth,
Search thoughts and feelings 'cause memory is proof.

Boiling inside its internal despair,
I cool it with water like it wasn't there,
I pretend I don't care & I know it's not fair,
How I built myself with pieces left spare.

I won't go back to that place little reaper I win,
I'll let down my hair see it flow in the wind,
I'll take off my clothes 'cause I glow with my sin,
I could never invite you so now I rescind.

Breaking a leg to make the cast,
Nobody said that gold was brass,
A **** show tarnished not to last,
A circus in truth so wild and fast.

Climb up to fall off then wallow in tears,
"Overcome" now your back and your buried by fears,
A new storm forming when one has just cleared,
A cycle of chaos from the core interferes.

No intermission or lies by omission,
Depressive episodes have become a tradition,
Darkness multiplies it's beyond addition,
Stuck in a bog and it dulls cognition.

You should be happy you play a key part,
You pay all your taxes while breaking your heart,
Slaves to a system from your kids you depart,
Thought you could finish well here's where it starts.

They've spent your whole pension,
They want you dead did they mention,
It's a form of preemptive intervention,
This society is one that breeds apprehension.

Cosmic Mother Our Queen Of Life,
Give Us Strength To Stride Through Strife,
Cleanse The Way When Night Won't Fall,
Give Us Grace When We Want It All.

Holy Jesters Making Mockery Of Our Pain,
The Sky May Look Green To A Man With No Brain,
The Grief & Compassion These Animals Fein,
Don't Listen To Closely 'Cause Sentiment Stains.

The Truth Is Shown In Their Disdain,
We're Made To Give So They Can Gain,
Have You Not Seen This Political Game,
Divided So Broadly When We're All The Same.

Cosmic Mother Bring Us A New Day,
Let All The Angry Wastage Waste Away,
All Of The Awe In This World It Can Stay,
But Take Out The Trash & To That We Will Pray.

Dying inside but I'd breath life into you,
A healing circle circled thrice in
salt circle around you.

I'd scream to the Goddess & beseech all her power,
Reverse all the deeds & rewind to the hour...

Life's not that simple & that makes me sour,
Haunted inside I can't heal how I've flowered,

Love at the core of the blossoms sweet presence,
Heating the hearts and making one essence,

Now it's been severed I sweat while I shiver,
The fever consumes in the fire I wither.

Airing my ire I was born in the fire,
A Phoenix flying higher with wings that never tire,
I wish I could touch but the glory was too much,
It seared my skin and such feathers iridescent in my clutch.

Swallowing pride I won't wallow inside,
All of my life I could never decide,
To live for myself or let my time slide,
A war in the skin where my spirit resides.

Now in my skin I'm not hollow like tin,
More battles to win I won't sink I can swim,
I won't burn in my sin or burden my kin,
My soul will not dim the darkness I rescind.

I want to beat your face till I break my fist,
Burn your **** on the ashes I'll ****,
Everyday it's led to this,
No more niceties I made a list.

I'll cut your heart out & feed the foxes,
Can't bury your body your flesh is toxic,
So I'll burn you with your clothes & boxes,
Then I'll kick back feet up in my boxers.

I thought I might try & make a love song,
Thought I was weak now I'm feeling strong,
"Good Morning" different bedside I woke up wrong,
All the people will be mourning before to long.

So these are my thoughts when I'm in your place,
But I won't "cut my nose off to spite my face."
So these are all my thoughts in unfiltered space,
Not a pretty picture but I rest my case.