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 Jun 2014 haley
Court
I just want you to know
that my favorite black shirt makes me look skinnier than I am
I never smile with teeth because my teeth aren't perfect
My eyelashes aren't that long without my mascara

I want you to know that I'm happy most days but I'm sad most nights
I take sleeping pills because I'm always worrying too much to sleep on my own
I cry alot. Mostly over my father's betrayal.

I want you to know that I love you more than myself
I find myself avoiding mirrors most days
I know you think I'm beautiful but I will never believe it.

I want you to know that on those really bad days when I can't even get out of bed, even when your hugs and holding my hand can't brighten my dead eyes, take me to the ocean and let the darkness of my heart be taken away each time the water meets the shore.
 Jun 2014 haley
Haruka
More often than not, you find that you don't really want to die.
Maybe it happens after you swallow the pills,
or maybe it happens when you slit your wrists too deep.
Or maybe it happens when you feel the life slipping out of your shell of your body on the ***** bathroom floor of your father's house.
Or maybe it happens when you see the face of a God
you spent 17 years cursing.

You are young and you'll experience love and pain and loss intensely and it'll seem like your life is falling apart at times.
But you are strong enough to build it back up from its bare bones.
You are not your failures.
You are not a mirage of tangled memories and unfulfilled promises.
You are a kaleidoscope of color,
a collision of atoms moving at the speed of light.
You are the wind,
You are the sun,
You are the moon,
You are all my stars.

You are all these things and so much more
and I hope that you will find strength in the little things that make this
life worthwhile.

I hear it's beautiful on the other side, but you've yet to taste the spectrum so stay a little longer for me, please?
My mother told me to talk about the future and I looked up and smiled at the sky.
 Jun 2014 haley
Court
Sext:
 Jun 2014 haley
Court
Everything you ever said was always picturesque and it's no wonder that I fell in love with you.
(Cch)
 Jun 2014 haley
madison
I'm Ok?
 Jun 2014 haley
madison
"I'm fine."
"No, nothing is wrong."
"Yes, I'm happy."

Lies. Every single statement is a lie.

"No I'm not ok.
"Everything is wrong."
"No, I'm depressed.

If only I could say that out loud. But that would mean I would have to *trust them.* *And I'm sure as hell not doing that. They would only try to "help" and by help, I mean therapy, doctors, and maybe even my very own shrink! No. That is not going to happen because I'm happy. Right?
Really bummed out today...
 Jun 2014 haley
Ruthie
Numbness
 Jun 2014 haley
Ruthie
Life is a beautiful condescending labyrinth of emotions. Some of us just get mixed up in between it all.
Feeling nothing.
 Jun 2014 haley
Court
Untitled
 Jun 2014 haley
Court
Indirectly saying "I love you" by giving you the cup with more coffee.
 Jun 2014 haley
Tyler Cobain
The greatest skill I've attained
Is convincing people I'm okay.
It's a peculiar feeling
I surely sense I'm beginning to fray

Life is a disease
I self-medicate with drugs and alcohol
Taunted by the constant reminder that
We are not special

Just another reason to
Retreat further into one’s self
Making a more secure asylum
For what comes back from where I delve

I was confident in my sadness
Given it's my only talent
Others saw it as Melancholy Madness
With it I felt twisted and gallant

Living in the narcissistic megalomania state
From vitriol there's no solace
A fluid everlasting berate
Every utterance drenched in malice

This is my everyday
It's not pretty but it's home
Is it truely better to burn out or fade away?
Anyway I'm used to being alone
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