I am still afraid
to look you in the eyes
I know it has been months
and I tell myself, I tell everyone

the hurt in my heart is fading
the scars on my heart are only skin deep

but I am still afraid
to look you in the eyes
and remove the walls I built up
because I know you will see

the hurt lingering in my eyes
the pain I try to hide behind my smile

and I am still afraid
to look you in the eyes
because I might find out
that you don't care anymore

For someone who is never leaving,
I say goodbye a lot
For someone who is never gonna stop loving you,
I deny my love a lot
For someone who needs you like a newborn needs to be fed
I push you away a lot.

For someone who counts every second from the moment i hear your footsteps fade
Till i see you again,
I pretend to be oblivious a lot.

For someone who is burning at the sight of you two together,
I wish you well a lot.
For someone who cries every night,
I still have a lot of hurt inside
For someone who is never going to be first on your list,
I expect a lot.

For someone who remains awake at night reminiscing the little details about you
I avoid any sort of eye contact with you a lot.

I lay awake at night,
You fill my thoughts and my dreams.
I'm thinking of you now,
How you will appear in my dreams,
As you have countless nights before.
The night will consist of cuddling fallowed by hugs,
Perhaps a kiss too
If I'm lucky.
The way your soft lips will meet mine,
Making me warm and calm,
Yet I am exited and filled with joy.
My emotion just growing more and more
I feel as if I'm going to explode with joy and shout
"I'm the luckiest man alive to have you"
But, then I wake up
It was all a dream and you are still on my mind
I began to remember the way you hurt me and left me to suffer
I still love you though
With no logic or reason I love you and always will...

It's funny,
A little taste of something,
Something good can drive someone insane,
Only wanting more,
More of the good times,
More of you and your smiles,
More of you grabing my hand,
Setting it gently on your leg,
As if to invite me to let go,
Inviting my to feel and love,
This was but a taste,
And you neglect to mention that fact,
Neglect to mention in a few weeks you'll rip my heart out,
Then leave me in silence,
With only my pain,
All over just a little taste,
It was but a taste