basic thoughts lead to basic things
eventually it turns into a circle

and our minds get trapped inside

I own everything
do you know what that means?
I am like a king
because I own everything

many wants lead to many needs
eventually, leaving you starving

it's like a mental malnutrition

I have everything
but I don't know what life means
to my things I cling
I have everything

ive never had anything but a one stand
I don't even understand how its easy to give yourself to people who will say anything then leave.
I know how these things work.
affection and attention, slight attraction
sometimes cause a *******
my feet hurt and im tired of leaving before they wake up.
I hold my pride like I want them to hold me
its easier to give in than it is to give up.
im a impatient little ****.
so ill kick my shoes off
take some shots and pretend like I cant feel this because this isn't feeling its slightly dying.
my feet hurt and im tired of one night stands but ill be gone by morning.

i refused to call you tonight
i cant hear your voice
it stays in my mind long after we get off the phone

ill never deserve you i hope you know

cant tell if im crying cause im sad or this wine taste like ***
ive talked myself out of calling you all day
i figured you might want some time
i need the space

rice
oh god rice
ive had it every night
porkchops and rice
nodles and rice
rice
step mom make brocoli
brocoli and rice
oh god guys so much rice im my sad life
rice
long grain or sticky
yellow or brown
got a rice *** cooking it now
rice and steak
rice and eggs
rice and life
im tired of rice.

I left the comfort of your hugs
And ran into the arms of the unknown
Left the door wide open an the keys in the pad lock
Walked away from you an this home
An I'm never looking back
Escaping the grip that's stopping me from breathing
Moods change like the seasons
You say how could I hurt you
This is all that i can do
Is run away from you
You change me
But you hate me
And it's crazy but I don't mind
It's just fine
An I love you but I hurt you
So I'll leave you, to save you from me
I'll miss you
As I disappear like the sun behind the clouds
Just know I'll always keep you inside
But it's over
Nothing really last forever
Just take this as some weird bad weather
I know longer want to hurt you inside
This is all I can do
Is run away from you