You don't look at me Like I look at you Am I a burden to you? I did not choose this illness So why do you blame me Why do you break everything Every promise Every word Falls down the drain
I ran away from home Home that was so cold Freezing my soul I ran away from home Now the past is haunting me Now traumas follow me Leaving me out of breath
she grabbed me with her cold bony arms told me she will be my friend instead she turned me into a dead man she pulled every emotion out of me she pulled all of my vices and happiness i pop pills i pray to the sky to take me back but her hug is so cold so bony so strong i need warmth i need my happiness back
this life in waves up and down like up on a rollercoaster all the time manic and depressed round and round and round stop this please i lost my youth to hospitals and pills i don't want to be sick
This hell that consumes me Gets the best of me What have I done to put up with this suffering Months of depression And then light shines bright Welcome to the manic world voices said There is no exit From this cycle It is like being buried alive Crying and screaming Laughing and running all over the world
I am hungry Tired Nicotine addicted Smell of cigarettes take over my room I am starving and I should keep on going Punish myself for all I did For all you did to me I cannot sleep I cannot eat for comfort I need to smoke most of the time away My heart is beating too fast Or no at all