You told me I'm ready, but I'm panicking.
You told me it's okay, but I'm not sure.
You told me you're proud, but I don't believe you.
Now it's time to step on stage, forgive me if I don't meet your expectations.
I'm sorry.

I tried learning how to tie a sailor's knot.
A knot that looks simple, and is.
But in my rush to learn it, it slipped my mind.

In my desperate attempts to tie these strings together, I failed.
So I tied a square knot.
I was foolish, really.

I wanted to learn a sailor's knot, a Carrick Bend.
Because it was easier to untie,
compared to a square knot.

And when it was time,
when it was needed to let go, I couldn't.
I fell in with it, fell in with the ship.

If I only I didn't rush,
rush learning it,
maybe I could've gotten out alive.

I don't get why you blame me,
You didn't tell me from the start.
Because of your hesitation,
You let everything fall apart.

I didn't realize how bothersome it was
To my friends I've met through you.
I hate that it's happening again...
I don't know what to do.

I just liked this feeling,
This burning passion inside.
Something I could put to good use.
Something I wouldn't want to die.

But it blinded me,
Blocked out the sounds of the outside world.
I should've paid more attention,
I should have had the past learned.

I'm sorry I let this happen,
I suppose this is how it ends.
No one else would tell me
That history's repeating again.

I've gotta be careful in what I say,
Since you'll be here for just a few days.
I don't know why I care so much.
But like a snowflake, no need to be touched.

As cold, as dark as winter night,
I always lose you from my sight.
This place's confusing me with it's madness.
There is overflowing sadness.

I don't get how I'll survive this,
They're messing with my consciousness.
But I'll do it all for one thing.
Not much more madness can this bring.

The only reason I stay here,
The place where there are only tears,
Is all because of you.
Thank you.

Meaningless lines on my wrist,
I suppose is what you'd think.
Foolish, these markings mean much more than "immaturity",
A lot more, if you cared to listen.
If only you took a step back to look at the bigger picture.
It speaks a lot, doesn't it?
You're just afraid of what you don't understand.

I dared not to repeat history,
To not repeat that life changing mistake, But different actions, same results.

I piece together this puzzle,
Oh so carefully.
From my experience in the past few months,
I've learned the things we did to fail.

But this isn't enough,
Not much information gathered.
And so, here am I walking on a similar path,
It feels like October 14th all over again.