Dear You

I wanted to write and tell you all the things I think you should know.
I wanted to tell you that.. you are amazing and I love your words.
Every comma, every consonant, every vowel, every **** syllable.
I feel your heart pour onto the page and it makes me hold my breath.
And pray.
Because .. even the angels need to know what you write, well, that's what they should be preaching.

And I know that times are hard for you, and I feel that too. I know just a little of how that feels. It's not quite the same but, I have anxiety and I worry a lot and I always think I am going to die and my heart races and the world is just too big and it's too loud and tries to eat me alive... and...  
I wish I was invisible.
Maybe that is nothing like the things you face. But you are not alone and I know you are brave. Braver than me... is braver a word? braver.. braver.. more brave, bravest?
Any way... the thing is ...  I will be here should you need me, you just call out my name and you know where ever I am, I'll come running... wait a minute... that's actually a song... I'm quoting some song lyrics to you.. yeah... this is why I don't actually go out much, and probably why I am single..
Okay, I know I am messing all of this up so, I just want to tell you, before I ruin everything.. you are wonderful. You are brave and courageous. You have a soul that I can feel through your words and I think it is beautiful. You are a waterfall of wondrous things. And I hope I can tell you that, I just want you to be my friend...
And if you say yes, that would make two.

Okay I hafta go
Just don't stop writing okay... never stop being wonderful.
Lots of Love
Me
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You can hear me reading this here...
https://soundcloud.com/rachael-435397529

Probably quite dreadful but I tried :o)

That heart that she once craved for
And that boy that made her want more
(More than ever before)
That same soul that completelly made her lose it all
Believe me, she never thought that she could face such fall
And the facts are all in there
And they are more than she can bare

Make it simple for her, make it clear
This girl doesn’t need more fear
She’s not a toy, she’s not a shell
Don’t make her go through Hell

She was careless to believe that soul
She was stupid to be thinking that this boy would make her whole

Who knows if her memories will ever be erased
‘cause she doesn’t want to remember all that time that she had waste
Maybe she never will forget
Maybe it was fate, that they had met

But all for best... she wants to die because it makes her hurt
Because no matter how many times she said “I love you”, she was never heard