Ammar

Ammar Dec 2017

you're asking me questions
i do not have the answers to

i do not know
what
and i do not know
how where when or why

all i know is that
i do not deserve
to be lied to or to be cheated
the way you have done both to me

my mind does not deserve
to be ******
the way you have ****** it
and taken away its peace

you don't give me the peace
or the love or loyalty
or the *truth
that someone like me deserves

and that doesn't mean that
you can't heal the wounds
just that you choose not to
because you'd just cut it open again

you're asking me questions
i do not have the answers to

i do not know
how
to fix a broken being
which you willfully shattered

all i know is that
you *did this and that
"this" is no blame but a
responsibility you must take

this isn't on me
and this includes
the pain caused and
the love lost

and i do not know
that if what you have lost
you can ever redeem again
or even know the worth of

perhaps it was all worthless
to you to begin with
perhaps i and the 'i love you'
was only worth your broken lie

**but maybe that is a question
i will never have an answer to

Don't ask me questions that you have answered for yourself

#love #lie #question #answer #hurt #pain #life

Ammar Dec 2017

"This Hurts"

atleast the words I speak
are the truth
atleast you know the war
that goes on in my mind

of course it hurts
but now you know
of the pain between
my every heart beat

darling this isn't hurt
truth doesn't hurt
half as much
as a lie does

but you wouldn't know
what a lie feels like
or what a liar looks like
now would you

you only know the pain
of truth
and take it from one who has
felt both

lies give birth
to hate
to hurt
to disgust

if truth makes your body ache
and makes your soul cry in pain
then imagine the pain
caused by the lies you spoke

Always about your hurt and pain isn't it
Even when you are the one who caused me the kind of pain
I'd never have ever expected

get lost into oblivion if you think this hurts

#truth #liar #lie #hurt #pain #broken #insane

Ammar Dec 2017

Oh Dear Darling

Oh darling of mine

You make promises
you know you can't keep
and don't even realize that
promises aren't to be kept
they are to be fulfilled

Promises aren't to be kept
under your pillow or
under the warm sun's light
they aren't words mumbled
they are taken actions

You'd promise to never
betray nor leave me
when the clouds would roar
of troubles we faced
but I fought the clouds alone

You'd "step out" of my life
telling me to lose all hope
to ever have your love
telling me to die and ease
this world of agony

You'd "step out" of my life
and maybe you wouldn't walk into
someone else's life but didn't you
then walk with someone else to see
how a life without me was all about

Oh darling of mine

You make words seem
like kisses on the beach
when they'd all be thorns
growing out of your skin
not realizing that

Words don't need to soothe
they don't have to comfort
a dead soul in distress
words are supposed to rip a heart out
and stop it from beating lies

You'd talk about never
forging words nor corrupting
truths with lies that were made
ruthlessly of despise
and i saw that in your eyes

You'd say that
"I lied cuz..."
so baby don't you dare
lie over a lie and tell me
stories of how you'd never lie

You'd be writing writes
about the one with green eyes
telling me its all but fiction
with no one in your mind
surely that night i must've been blind

oh darling of mine*

you're hell's fire
that burns my heart
with hurt and desire

you've been a liar
for a time I did not inquire

now toss me once again and burn me alive in hell's fire

I am sorry for ever believing you
oh and
between me and you
loyalty is something, I'd rather show

#love #hurt #promise #lie #liar #loyal #broken #pain #hope #life

Ammar Dec 2017

Poets’ Pain

Ink your heart with words that ache
Then let all that ink leak out your eyes
Onto a blank white page

#life #poets #writers #hurt #pain

Ammar Nov 2017

Can a lie ever be true...

you lied about his eyes
you lied about those writes*

I should've known you better
you never write fictitious *******
for the sake of writing
you don't give a **** about
the crying letters on a blank white page
or the words that ache with pain

you wrote what you hid from me
wrote about the want and need
for another man
A man with eyes as green as the forest
that was no fiction or imagination
your words had lust written all over

you lied about yourself
you lied about us as well

You'd speak of us as the
stars speak of the sun
you'd talk about how in our conversations
the sentences never took too long
to formulate with emotions

You'd tell me how
you're a 10 p.m sleeper
when a goodnight for me in fact
could be a goodmorning for someone else

But I'd let my night pass into day
and let the light of day turn
into the darkness of the night sky
and that is when you'd miss me
when your night sky was dark enough

you lied about your love
you lied about my pain

You'd tell me how I mean more to you
than the green in the grass
or the blue in the sky

You'd tell me how my pain
aches your limbs
and breaks your ribs

But if that was really it
how could you then
give me all this pain
with your lies
every single day of our lives

But if it was true then how could you
not see the pain in the letters I wrote to you
or the letters I scribbled to formulate words
words which made no sense in sentences
except they filled the blank white
with black spite

But in the end
it is not about what you lied about
or why you did
But about the fact
that you did what
i never could

Lying can never be justified no matter what
and a liar who gives you **** for catching their lie.....nothing can ever be worse

#lie #liar #hurt #love #life #time #words

Ammar Nov 2017

Liar Liar

A mere few days
And we had almost
Gotten back together

I got you a present
And you saw our future
But I guess love much like you
Is not that simple
It’ll show you the best
And give you the worse
When you least expect it

And so it was
When you confessed
To your lies
And broke me once again

But this isn’t about me
Or my heart that you broke
Or my souls that you consumed
Or my mind that you poisoned

This is about you
And your blatant lies
The ones you fed me with love
For breakfast lunch and dinner

This is about how I trusted you
Blindly and unconditionally
If the words came from you
They were default correct for me

This is about how you had no guilt
As you pretended
To be someone you’re not
And showed me a you
That didn’t even exist

And I don’t want the you
That exists

The you that exists is a liar
The you that’s real is a cheat

But look at my misery
I say
i love you
When I don’t even know **you

I could take anything....I could take anyone but a lie and a liar in the form of the person closest to me
****

#love #hurt #liar #cheat #fake #deception #you