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 Oct 2016 Emma
Kareena
10/17
 Oct 2016 Emma
Kareena
You look good
And I'm not saying that as an afterthought
Something I forgot to mention and now I'm thinking it
Because I don't have you and that has past
My heart bleeds to see pictures of you
And what is the most excruciating
Is to think of you forgetting me entirely
I have attempted to move on, I won't lie
And I have tried, but I'm just kidding myself
Into believing that I could be good for anyone else now
I'm not all that great at being happy alone
I love loving someone else, making them smile

But no one can fill you space
I have a hard time imagining loving someone new
I'm in no place, I can't foresee tenderness
I don't think I've ever felt more guarded
I just need to let myself be alone
To settle down and experience living on my own

It's just when I saw you, I remembered how it was
To love you once more, and I was saddened
Because I remembered how I stood next to you
The times with beautiful moments
Ones that I would never want to forget
You meant so much to me
I just know the reason we eneded
That's my only consolation

But I could feel myself being pulled
In your general direction
A longing that I have dismissed
I ignored how I was feeling
Caught up in life's monotony
But I recognized that I do feel that way
I desire you now and I will
And that will be okay
 Oct 2016 Emma
Kareena
Clammy
 Oct 2016 Emma
Kareena
I am an oyster shell, partially open under the cover of the waves
Yet once I feel your intent to pick me from the water approaching
I close myself up, and I tuck my true heart away
I do not permit love to enter, the emotion is encroaching

I know I have a pearl to offer some other
I have been building it up over the years
Little by little a shiny seal has formed a cover
Over the irritation that used to be here

Despite the way I shut down and feel disconnected
You are not unworthy of my affection, I just don't know
How to interpret my emotions for you, my mind is hectic
Nonetheless, my hands are clammy and my face glows
 Oct 2016 Emma
Kareena
The Right One
 Oct 2016 Emma
Kareena
I am happy for you
Really, I am
I smile for you and I am excited
When you tell me every modicum
Of how he looked the other day
Or your intentional conversations
But I cannot help but feel inside
Like it soon may be over for you
Like it was for me, it always was
And I never want that for you
I want him to be the one you marry
I really hope for your sake he is
I pray you never have to have your heart broken
I pray you never have to live without him
I pray you never feel rejected
But I know your man is different
You chose the right one the first time
 Oct 2016 Emma
Kareena
Darker Parts
 Oct 2016 Emma
Kareena
I am scared that you won't like
The ugly parts of me
The parts I am ashamed of
The parts I try to hide

Somehow they come out so easily
With a single thought or memory
Ironically I'm still an open book
I've revealed it to you, my crumpled heart
Like damaged goods, a cracked plate
Not everything is honeysuckle sweet
There are darker parts to me
 Oct 2016 Emma
Kareena
Departure
 Oct 2016 Emma
Kareena
It's okay if you want to go
Recede into the woodwork
Take your hat quietly and leave
I understand your departure
I may soon disappear as well
 Oct 2016 Emma
Kareena
It's Not You
 Oct 2016 Emma
Kareena
If you wish to talk to me no longer, I understand
I wasn't prepared when you grabbed my hand
And when you looked at me like that I must confess
I felt and aching and breaking inside my chest

Because I knew and said that I wasn't ready
My head is a mess and my balance unsteady
You were nothing but wonderful near and far
Talking with me till morning in your car

What I felt was honest, what I knew was true
I don't deserve the things you do
Because I know it now than ever more
I'm not ready for you knocking at my door

I'm sorry, I'm sorry, please please believe
Even though it's cliché, it's not you, it's me
I'm really sorry
 Oct 2016 Emma
Joy
you make me sick
 Oct 2016 Emma
Joy
And you're the one person I miss -
I miss you so much sometimes it makes me sick.
Its only happens around now,
In the twilight of sleeping and waking,
And for some ******* reason
It's just you.
I mean, I've had dozens of loves ones
Stumble in and out of my life
Like wandering ghosts.
And still they utter that I'm a hermit
When they hear the empty din of silence
Instead of reverbing "I miss you!"s
And the echoing "lets get together sometime!"
I am not one to latch on;
I do not reel them in, I do not bait.
I would much rather drink alone
Then get giddy off of shots and beer pong with
Lonely company.
But you -
For some **** reason, you -
You make me sick with longing.
October, 2016
 Oct 2016 Emma
Breanna Stockham
Gemini, Scorpio, Libra, Aries
Jet black, brunette, bleach blonde, redhead
Introvert, extrovert, whisper, yell
Hide and seek, show and tell

Scientist, janitor, actor, cashier
Celebrating first or ninety-fifth year
Sixty hours, forty, ten
Luscious, average, thick or thin

Disposable income or income disposed
Hair covered up or shoulders exposed
Skin of all colors, some dark and light
Haven't we created such a versatile life?

It seems we've replaced different with bad
Condemning differences we're lucky to have
How boring if we had one season, one flower
How boring, a rainbow with only one color
 Oct 2016 Emma
Kareena
The air just felt crisp enough
For me to put on that shirt you left me
And when I did
*I swear it got chillier
Or maybe I got the chills
 Oct 2016 Emma
Kareena
Tengo ganas de estar
Cerca de ti
Para sentirte en el cuerpo
Para que toques con el pelo
Y siento su ligera presión de dedo
Para expresar algo profundo como antes
Antes de este momento

Estoy enamorada con una fantasía
Con un hombre que ahora no existe
No le he visto por mucho tiempo
Y es como un nube en el cielo
La forma en que puede tranformarle
A causa del tiempo y el viento
Es impresionante como cambia tan rápido
Justo en frente de los ojos abiertos

Es duro para sentir completa
Sin otra media
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