From the first time I saw her
I thought she was
A work of art;
A mystery

Stayed in my mind after.
As time passes
My heart;
On trajectory.

What is it about her;
That makes me want to rush
And help if she were to break apart,
Recreating a tale of an old lover's history?

-m.b

The wind carries what is not rooted,
So be like the trees
Your leaves may sway but you will remain

I'm awake, no sleep in sight
5:45am. The cogs keep turning and the fog keeps burning and I find myself
Wide eyed. In love.
I inhale the darkness with every breath, breathing deeper than usual
I inhale this smoke with a vengeance
Fresh air. For once in my ******* life I feel whole
Is it you?
Is it the shade?
Is it the love we made?

Don't make me go to sleep because I know when I wake it will be gone. Let me stay. Let me soak. Keep me woke.

I have turned tides
when they told me all I could do was drown

sitting in the 7th grade classroom,
the science teacher sternly explained

the premise is that
if a frog is put into boiling water
it will jump out

but if it is put in tepid water
which boils slowly

it will be burnt to death.

and oh my god
i never realized why I stayed
and let myself burn

(but then again, I run towards smoke
and I like the smell of fire)

(i keep matchsticks under my tongue
and I like to fan the spark)

(i guess you could say
smeared char compliments the colour
of my vulnerability)

(ive never looked better)

it* has been coming back
every night
and I had to make sure
I was still alive

don't leave me alone
this blade
against my skin
feels very cold

don't leave me alone
the puddle of blood
scares me
when I look at the floor

don't leave me alone
or it will consume me
and what's left of my soul

don't leave me alone
I can hear the sirens
and my eyes
are starting to close.

Your lies were pregnant
They gave birth to false dreams
And now here I am,
A grandmother to broken promises

Sometimes I wish you would
Hit me and kick me,
Make me beg for mercy,
And torture me forever.

Sometimes I wish you would
Beat me until I'm numb,
Make me cry out,
Cut me until I can't bleed anymore...

Sometimes I wish you would
Use my body,
Give me everything I deserve,
And tear me apart...

Sometimes I wish you would
Just throw me through a wall,
Break every bone,
Make my tears stream into my wounds...

Because that would be
So much easier than
Sitting here and
Watching you be with her.