There is a manic presences in my head
The maniac lurking in this cuckoos nest
You'd think by now we'd be acquainted
But when it starts creeping in
I begin to fade again

*There is a sane shadow with me here
The string puller; The puppeteer
You'd think by now we'd be integrated
But when it finally reappears
I vanish into thin air

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                                                            ­       ( it's you ! )
/•/                                                

Tender

                                                       ­     The night reveals the paths

That lovers take                

( From                            
                                ­Here to There )

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Those that last are those that

                                    Take awhile

That wander thru countless centuries                                      

•

That

Touch every Door

That never break hearts

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Tenderly

                 Every step

Gentle and sure                            

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Alone

We walk alone in the rainy streets

Where broken promises litter

The sacred song with

Such indescribable pain

And blind forgetfulness

••

Walk on

•

The light in your eye

The lightness in your step

Is not

Vanity

••

Alone in the tender rain of undying mercy

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The story that lasts

Takes time to unfold

And a heart 's true intensity

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Ah

There you are !

In the shadows

Watching !

I knew that you were always there

Waiting

For the moment when

Forever

And the moment meet

•

When we truly are

Who we were meant to be

We couldn't find you

I shouldn't be the one to have to tell you this
There was no need for anyone to finish that sentence
I knew what had happened

They found you in the car
With our family's dog
The garage door sealed shut
Car still running
Spewing toxic fumes

A huge anvil came down and knocked my feet out from under me

My sister and I collapsed onto the floor
It felt like someone was tearing me apart
One piece at a time
Like someone had punched a hole through my chest
Ripping out my heart to burn and crush into the ground

Our worlds seemed to collapse around us, I had to hold my legs so tightly to my chest to prevent myself from falling apart right there on the floor

I didn't have a mother anymore
She is not going to see me graduate
She is not going to help me pick out my grad dress
She is not going to meet my first true love
She is not going to be there when I have my first drink in a bar
She is not going to be there when I show her my engagement ring
She is not going to be there when my father walks me down the isle
She is not going to be there when I announce that I'm pregnant
She is not going to be there when my first child is born
She is not going to be there to be the most loving grandmother
She's gone