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1.4k · Aug 2018
Butterfly
Ecstabell Aug 2018
A caterpillar waits inside her cocoon
Patient
Holding onto the promise of a more beautiful future
A transformation.
Meanwhile
Outside
Life moves forward.
Leaves swirl around and around
Daylight dances on the face of her lover
As he loves another.
Still she waits
Alone
Forgotten
Trapped in the walls she built herself.
Protected in the past
All for a more beautiful future.
1.3k · Mar 2019
Money is blind
Ecstabell Mar 2019
Pay no mind to the ones
Who sit in their offices
And make money
From campaigns built on insecurity
Conformity
And unattainable standards

Pity them instead
For through their corporate lenses
They see only green
When in fact
There is an entire rainbow
1.3k · Mar 2019
Pictures do lie
Ecstabell Mar 2019
In a world
Filled with promises
Of unattainable beauty
The best rebellion
Is to love yourself
1.0k · Mar 2019
Pyromaniac
Ecstabell Mar 2019
You will feel my fire
See the raging blaze
As it burns your eyes
But still
Knowingly
Willingly
You'll walk into the flames
Consumed
You must be a fool
To think
Any man could survive me
740 · Mar 2019
Indifference
Ecstabell Mar 2019
It suddenly dawns on me
In the darkness
That I'm not convinced
You actually care about me at all

And if I forgot to stamp the footprint of me
Constantly
In your mind
You'd let the snow build
And it would be like I'd never been there
At all
414 · Dec 2018
Seasons
Ecstabell Dec 2018
My mind is a wild place
Untamed and unkempt
A battlefield
Where weeds and flowers
Intertwine
Fighting for the last glimpse of light
Before the sky clouds over
And darkness falls
341 · Oct 2019
Untitled
Ecstabell Oct 2019
I flew across the ocean
To make myself forget
The image of you and her
And yet here I am
Alone
And all I see in the ocean's waves
Is you
335 · Aug 2018
The Aftermath
Ecstabell Aug 2018
Before, two flames
Lighting the dark
Warm
Comforting
Safe.
Oblivious to the danger, they join
Love their kindling.
Fire rages
Destruction
Chaos
Ashes fall.
After
Silence
Nothing left to burn, no love left for kindling
Two flames
Extinguished.
270 · Apr 2019
Jealousy
Ecstabell Apr 2019
Jealousy is the curse
Of believing that
Something inside you
Is missing

It is the curse
Of self doubt
Irrelevance
Dismissal

It is the curse
Of being made to feel
That you are not enough

And it is the curse
Of being so easily
Replaced
234 · Dec 2018
Disengagement
Ecstabell Dec 2018
You ran from my tears
Like a flood
When all I wanted
Was for you
To dive in
Headfirst
217 · Apr 2019
Drunk pain
Ecstabell Apr 2019
Funny how the pulse of your world
The heartbeat
Could thrive
Unknowing
I pierced my own heart for you
Willing to bleed myself dry
Every last drop
Your ignorance
I watch myself
Starving
Gasping for air never meant for me
Drawing otherwise forgotten breaths
No one will find you here
212 · Dec 2018
50/50
Ecstabell Dec 2018
You must always
Love yourself
More
Than you are willing
To put up with ****
From someone who is supposed to love you
Because power
And control
Isn't love
It's ownership
184 · Dec 2018
Insomniac
Ecstabell Dec 2018
Each night I wake
And think of you
While you lay
Dreaming of her
173 · Oct 2019
Standards
Ecstabell Oct 2019
Like a mantra I repeat
He's not good enough for you anyway
Like it will heal the pain
From the fact that you don't want me
161 · Mar 2019
Another
Ecstabell Mar 2019
We told each other everything
Now you tell her
And I tell no-one
158 · Oct 2019
Wings
Ecstabell Oct 2019
What if
Instead of catching you
I let you fall from the cliff
Would you crash
Or would you grow wings
Just in time
And if so
Would you soar away
Or would you use them
To fly back to me
142 · Mar 2019
Tsunami
Ecstabell Mar 2019
My thoughts trickle from the inwards out
They form rivers  
That cannot be contained
Like a tsunami they come crashing
I am a force
And I can not be reckoned with  
Come too close
And you will drown in me
129 · Feb 2021
Home
Ecstabell Feb 2021
How good it feels
To come home to yourself
127 · Oct 2019
Untitled
Ecstabell Oct 2019
Empty words are just that
Empty
127 · Apr 2019
Whole
Ecstabell Apr 2019
How to find the balance
Between believing you are loved
And yet
Never relying on others

- you must make yourself whole
113 · Oct 2019
Untitled
Ecstabell Oct 2019
To waste a mind
As brilliant as mine
On thoughts of you
Should be criminal
112 · Oct 2019
Untitled
Ecstabell Oct 2019
We long for softness in others
Like an addiction
We crave their secrets
Their truths
Like a one way mirror
We yearn to see them
But only while we remain hidden

                        - Vulnerability is courage

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