the oxygen i breathe
is the oxygen i use
to drop to my
eternal death

oxygen
what a lifeless substance.
a substance of nothing
always

oxygen is the fullness of
nothing
the depth of
death- the power of whole

it is the chemical reaction
where
good meets bad,
broken meets free,
holy meets unholy,
and love meets hate

love is like
the beautiful piece
of nothing
that we inhale everyday

inhale.
i just met you.
inhale.
i've just begun to love you in ways
i thought were never possible
inhale
the everlasting memories: the good and the bad
inhale
regret begins to mix with sorrows- making a deadly morphine
i inhale
and then,
i
fall
and
die


i don't know where you are
or where you have come from
i've only known the start
of a love
so beautiful
(b.d.s.)

i thought we had something more
i thought when you text me late at night it meant i wasn't just a friend anymore
i thought maybe id get the chance
to take you on a date
hold your hand
tell you that your cute every chance that i get
but when i told you how i felt you didn't say what i expected
you said in  your eyes we were just friends
even though i swear you gave me signals that meant "take the chance"
i covered my emotions for months cause of my ex
but when i thought i was ready, we were ready
i put my heart in my hands
put it out for you to carry
and when i thought you were holding it
you dropped it on the ground and left

ticking time
forgotten phrases
clicking pencils
treasured sounds

the ink from my pen
turned the words
I used to express
the infinite love...

...that was for you

I had forgotten what
it feels like
to love someone
the way I do
love you

love is to precious to leave
so alone
when I have a person to love
like you

every smile
is always worth it
every stanza
felt like a cool breath


open the wind
breathe effortlessly
to break
in a calm gentle ecstasy

love me darling
I wish
with all the heartache
you will love me always
(b.d.s.)

i want to be yours
just not a part of you
i want to be whole
one with you

i want to be yours
i want to be able
to attach the word
"mine" to your name

i long to be yours
just like the sun longs
for the earth
holding on in a constant balance

i long to defy the will
of the law
against the sins
of love

i long to
feel the warmth
of our hearts
becoming one...

like two hearts
exchanging blood,
feeling the pulse against
yours

love always eternal.

(b.d.s)