with mother of silence we're a playground for
the scars we spent and received with lovers now gone
regrets are heavy jagged stones
regrets are written like ******* meant to ******
regrets are loud awake and thousand miles tall  
wishes and hope are just whispers
intangible as wind

echoes of the hearts illusion
haunting situation
footsteps faint give glimpse of a vision of loves return
but thats a wicked crown that threads the pain needle
no witness sees your depths
tastes your darkness
a whiskey candy drunk on its sweet embrace
but clarity is a toy also
diamonds to one hand
dust to another

take back your wicked crown of pains needle
shatter the illusion mother of silence
understand my attempt
emptiness is a disease that rots the heart
lonely is a hunger that eats souls
wishes and hopes are just whispers
intangible as wind
but they are all i have

in a setting sun
reflected with imperfections on the lake
she waits under the summer tree
its lively conversation with the wind
stirs shadows and returns lost memories to her
like wayward children asking for bread and a sip

her fathers stern voice on a cold night
her first kiss by moonlight at bible camp
her cat's purr
these things come back to her in a rush
but the stillness of her face undisturbed
her's is a setting sun
reflected by the lake with imperfections

night is a sour brother to day and sits heckling
her from the window
that she should endure the hour alone
that her time fallow ground
the seeds scattered without care
but her hand scatters to her sleeping poet
and rests reassured on his feverish brow

she draws his form in fine lines and shadows
a black and white reflection of imperfection sleeping
she lingers with her smile
and by moonrise she is curled up in his arms
both dreaming reflections of the days reality's
but dreams are imperfect messengers of meaning
and hers is stuttering images of yesterday

in a rising sun
perfectly perceived
her bare skin wakes him
with anticipations of lustful hungers
he sees only her perfections
sees only the bright beauty of her body and soul
that is his imperfection
we are all slaves to our sunset's
we are all hopeful children of our dawn's
they are both imperfect
but together they are perfectly imperfect

I never
Want to see
You try to
Become something
Other than
What you were
On the day we met
Because
If you change
Then will we
Ever be
Like we were
Before you started
Becoming something
You never wanted to be

I dive into oblivion
And I don't know what I will find
The silence takes over immediately
I feel it creeping up into my core
I can feel myself being squeezed
I can't breathe and I fallout


And this is how it feels being in a one sided relationship

I had a dream last night
And I still don't know how to feel
About what I saw

It was you and I
We walked for hours
Through some random park
Put I didn't care where I was
I was with you

I decided to grab your hand
And you returned the gesture
And we stood there
In silence

I said something stupid
And it made you laugh
Somehow your eyes still lit up
In the darkness
And then I kissed you
I felt the warmth of your skin
On my lips
As I kissed your hand
And then your neck
But I could not put my lips
Against yours

That was when I discovered
It was all just a dream
Because I awoke in my bed
And you were still sleeping in yours