3:24 am
Green eyes come back
You left me stranded on the grey
I slipped into the black
Please, please
Green eyes come back

4:57 am
I find myself wondering about him
The taste of his skin calling to me in the black
His sweet breath on the back of my neck, illuminating my insides
Hands finding each other and weaving unknown sadness together

I don't think all this pain is good for me
******' up my hands punching walls.
Razor Blades to my skin
Its not good.
"A world so hateful someone would rather die then be who they are"
"A happy ending be slitting my throat"
You thought your jokes were funny
When I used to run away with tears rushing down my face, it was 'funny'
Now I stand here ready to kick the chair,
When I stop and think
"Wait"
Who needs 'em.
Bunch of insecure ******* trying to make themselves look good.
I say stay strong, **** bullies and be with people who accept you for who you are and don't give a **** what other people think.
Thank you *******.
You helped me see the light.
Long Live.

Wake up:
List the reasons why you need to get out of bed.
Pull a fake smile on your face.
Try not to cry.

Go to school:
Be numb.
Don't let the other students get too close.
Keep that smile on.
Try not to cry.

Go home:
Do homework
Keep smile on.
Stay numb.

Bedtime:
Take smile off
Stay silent.
Cry.

Lightly graze your fingers across my bare skin leaving trails of sparks as a memory

Hold me in the ever forgiving basket that is your arms

Leave me for days in the shadow of lust

Give me a look that the stars would envy, keep it between us two

Explore me, map every inch of my unknown skin and call it yours

Paint kisses of color on my canvas below you

Dig your nails into me, leave the smile shaped scars as a Polaroid