I relinquish control of others
and assume the role as leader of myself

I feel a throbbing for self gratification
and I'm going for it
pushing and kicking
until I get what I came for

Love is my feeling
I control it
******* too
they're all mine

I feel a need for freedom
so I'm packing my bags
and leaving town with the wind

If there are two things I've learned
it's that the tide always changes
and nothing lasts forever

words like hard punches
so painful she doesn't cry
Corn flakes for breakfast

I searched for
girls that like girls
within 50 miles of me
have dogs
under 5'2"
not white
and there you were
a big fluffy white dog in your arms
I met you in a sushi bar
I talked and talked
while you smiled

you always smelled like home
something I had searched for my entire life
someone to laugh with until we'd cry
to say I love you
every time we get off the phone
to kiss and snuggle in the morning
to watch survivor marathons with

you appeared unexpectedly
big eyes like a puppy
brown hands on white skin
how could there ever have been a more perfect love

You can't keep going
The preacher says to the *****
The candles white light
Burns hot in mama's eyes

past lovers, white lies
the power of empty rooms
secrets they possess