I'm so sorry
I'm sorry for everything
Everything I've done to you
I know that I did it
Even though you might not
But it was me
And I'm so sorry
I couldn't control any of it
I didn't know I was doing it
And I was stupid enough to think I wasn't hurting you
And I'm sorry
Words can't express how my head is spinning
And my heart aches
Just thinking about what I did to you
And how I can't turn back time and fix it
I'm so sorry

Why didn't I take the chances I got?
Why am I such a coward?
I could've confessed.
I could've told you
But I didn't.
I'm a coward
And now I'm paying the price.
My heart aches for you
And you're all I can think of
Because I didn't tell you
And now I'm paying the price.

All the pieces lie where they fell, yours and            
mine. I want to line those pieces up                                              
and keep the promises I made.
We need to start our journey.
And who knows? That may not
be so hard. Maybe
it’s already
begun. But
if not,
then
we
will go
together.
And don’t forget,
wherever you go,
I am always with you,
and I am thinking of you,
wherever you are. Because we
were once waiting for our birth by sleep,
when the world was like watching a dream that
we couldn’t wake up from. That scattered dream
was like a far off memory of
who we were. And in you and I,
there was a new land. But we
departed from that land,
and we started a
whole new journey
with friendship
to guide
us.
And
now I
step forward
to realize
this: our hearts have touched.
And the heart may be weak,
and sometimes it may give in,
but there’s a light that won’t go out.
And the darkness will not touch my heart
because of you, your light in the darkness.
You’ll be in my heart, and when the time comes
when we must go our separate ways,
our hearts will still be connected.
Whatever happens, we will
always be together
because of the bond
you and I have
always had
and will
share.

What lies beneath
in a dive to the heart is
A desire for all that is lost:
the twinkle in the sky,
the monochrome dreams,
a walk in andante;
among the fragments of sorrow
and sinister shadows.
Isn’t it lovely?
The nights of the cursed,
the rage awakened,
the waltz of the ******
in a cavern of remembrance.
And the other promise,
made to old friends, old rivals
in a dance to the death.
What a surprise,
the darkness of the unknown
and what lies beneath
in a dive to the heart.

How can one feel nothing, yet everything?
How can life be a blur, yet crystal clear?
Reality shifts, and the mind will cling
To any source of light to keep the fear
Of losing all the world, oneself, at bay.
Already lost, the world is so unreal.
The songs have lost all meaning, shades of grey
Make up the world, and the heart turns to steel.
Words flow without control, so purposeless.
It's like a dream, the way life can fly by
And leave you as a nervous wreck, a mess.
Life breaks you, and then only says goodbye,
And all you can say in the midst of pain:
“I can’t believe in anything again.”

Way back when I was younger
I was mistaken as a dude
They asked all sorts of questions
That slowly grew more rude

"Why don't you wear makeup?
Or dress in something nice?"
"If you ever want to get a guy
Why won't you just take our advice?"

When I began in high school
I had just begun to change
I had bought myself some cheap makeup
And clothes that just felt strange

Still, it wasn't enough though
The insults continued to come
"Ugly. Lazy. Undesirable"
It all began to make me glum

By the beginning of junior year
I had fully given in
Dresses replaced all of my jeans
And makeup covered all my skin

It was then, the insults changed
And people began to glare
Said I "cared too much about my looks"
And my "head must be full of air"

I still always got straight A's
The way I talked was still the same
But though I knew that they were wrong
Their comments made me feel lame

When senior year had rolled around
I was lonely as could be
People "liked" what I'd become
But I felt no one liked me for me

I'd never been on a single date
Because all the guys were crude
So it was only a small amount of time
Before I was labeled as a "*****"

When I finally started college
I expected something more
But people took one look at me
And labeled me a *****

I had not been sleeping around
I still hadn't even been on a date
Everyone just made assumptions
And looked at me with hate

The part that was most ironic
Was that after all these years
Of changing to be whatever they said
I was still hated by all my peers

I didn't want to dress like this
I didn't want to just conform
But there is only so much a person can take
Before they need to fit the "norm"

Society is what destroyed me
They are the reason I am this way
I changed to be what people wanted
Now I understand: I'll never see that day

I don't know who I am now
Though everyone else thinks that they do
Now please just take one piece of advice
It's so important to just stay you

You are perfect just as you are
So continue to stay strong
Remember no matter what they tell you
What society says is **wrong

I fell for you
But you stood your ground

I chased after you
But you hid your feelings from me

I opened myself to you
But you shut me out

But the main difference
between you and I?

I'm still here for you
But you're already gone